Another documented ‘Thoughts From Years Past’ that reflects what was going on in my life at a particular time. My post ‘I want to write a book’ describes my desire to write a book and several times in the past started this process, without proceeding very far.
The following documentation is a segment of about 5 pages of writing that was one of the ‘starts’ of my book.
Thoughts I wrote from September, 2004 – (unedited from original writing)
It is 8:00 Tuesday morning, September 20, 2004 and I am at work, bored! The type of work I do has its slow periods when I must find other things to occupy my time. So I thought to myself, why not start writing my autobiography? Why today? I have actually been thinking about it for years, but more seriously in the last couple of weeks. I think to myself if I wrote it who would want to read it? There are times I feel my life has been very different from most and people would find it interesting. But then again maybe my life is very similar to most and people would relate to it. In any case, if millions read this or I am the only one that reads this than I believe it is worth writing.
To write about one’s life, many facts and memories must be present. My intention many years back was to start a journal and write in it every day. I knew it would be interesting to read years later. I regret not ever starting that journal all those years ago. Over the years I have written thoughts down periodically and have other written material I will use in this book to help illustrate struggles and accomplishments during different periods of my life. These writings contain events of times gone by, and I will use my family and friends to regain facts that I may have forgotten. My memories are limited: I am not sure why, after all it is my life and I should have many memories about it. Where are all those memories, are they hidden way back in the back of my brain? Or they gone forever never to be retrieved and thought about again? I have not figured this out, but maybe writing this life story will help those memories appear and expose themselves after a long absence. Memories and glimpses of life’s experiences that are good and bad, exciting and horrifying. They serve purpose I think to remind us of where we have been and what we can learn to improve ourselves in this life we have. What can we make of ourselves with the memories we have? Do they just come back to haunt us and bring us down or do they lift us up to higher levels? Well maybe both! I choose to take what limited memories I have and use them as learning experiences to improve myself as a person. So as I write my life story, my hope is the memories that are few will increase in number. I want to use these memories to improve myself and maybe in the process I help others improve themselves.
I have never written a book and not sure where to begin. I think starting with today and throwing memories in here and there is the way to go. My current thoughts and feelings bring back those limited memories of times and events that have molded me into the person I am today. Dreams, desires and goals will be there also. Attempts, defeats, failures, successes, fears and displays of courage will be part of this book as well. After all if it were not for these, I do not believe I would be here today. Not here in regards to my position at work, my personal relationship or my place in life, but here in regards to just being alive. Yes, just being alive!