Another documented ‘Thoughts From Years Past’ that reflects what was going on in my life at a particular time. My post ‘I want to write a book’ describes my desire to write a book and several times in the past started this process, without proceeding very far. In my post ‘Thoughts From Years Past.8’, I ended with ‘I felt humiliated in front of my classmates with feelings it was somehow my fault. I do not remember the circumstances surrounding the incident, but was humiliated as a result of it.
The following documentation is a continuation of those pages.
Thoughts I wrote from September, 2004 – (edited from original writing to not disclose specific location)
Now do not get me wrong, school had its good times also. Junior high was the start of my interest in music. I joined the school band playing saxophone and really enjoyed this part of my school years until graduation. I have fond memories of concerts, marching contests, band trips and having great friends. I felt like I belonged to something where I fitted in. This was my outlet from other areas of school where I could shine and feel good about me. I excelled in band; becoming drum major of the high school marching band. This was an honor to hold this position and I felt respected and appreciated for my efforts. I received many medals for solo and ensemble contests in local and state competitions. I took the initiative to learn other instruments and had decided to make music my career. I wanted to be a band director and teach kids how to play music and feel special about their accomplishments. Music was going to be my life; my way to fit into this miserable world that I felt was unfair and cruel. Well, that never materialized. My dream changed due to life throwing an unexpected curve along the way.
….to be continued….
(more about my high school band years in this post: My High School Band Director)