I was on the treadmill this morning at the gym listening to my 70s music. Each aerobics machine has its own TV and I usually turn it off because I do not like the distraction. My partner is on the treadmill next to me and always has the TV on watching the news channels. I look over for a glance and see the horrible news of the shooting of a TV journalist and cameraman on live TV.
My heart sinks and I hold back emotions. Why?
Why do innocent people have to die like this, why?
I am saddened about this act and my heart is still heavy hours later, why?
It will be all over the news today and later I will listen and watch the latest on this tragic event.
I extend my prayers to the families, the friends, the colleagues, the audience, the loved ones – their hearts are broken.
We live in a world now full of medal detectors at all government offices and airports, movie theaters are now searching bags, what is next?
Whenever a tragedy such as this occurs, I think to myself, could this happen to me some day?
Will I be on a treadmill someday, exercising and minding my own business and someone walks in and starts shooting. Could this happen?
Yes it can – and before today’s event – with previous events – I have thought this before – could this happen to me?
Yes it can, but I will not stop using the treadmill or going to see a movie or grocery store shopping or going anywhere else. I will not allow fear to keep me away from those that wish to hurt others.
I will not stop living – I hope the living does not stop me – when will it end?
I am home writing this post and no longer holding the emotions back – I cry for loss of these people as I cry for the loss of life itself.