Thoughts From Years Past.14

Another documented ‘Thoughts From Years Past’ that reflects what was going on in my life at a particular time.  My post ‘I want to write a book’ describes my desire to write a book and several times in the past started this process, without proceeding very far. In my post ‘Thoughts From Years Past.13’, I ended with ‘I added to my list of failures me being a worthless lousy father. ’

The following documentation is a continuation of those pages.

Thoughts I wrote from September, 2004 – (unedited from original writing)

Shortly after graduation and before the first child was born, I worked several jobs from waiting tables to house maintenance repairs to painting, to finally getting hired as a manager trainee in a fast food restaurant.  After all this was the environment I grew up working in and knew so well.  I excelled and became general manager in a short period of time.  The responsibilities were numerous and the stress associated with the job was high.  I did what I always did, worked hard but not handling the stress well.  I wanted so much to earn my superiors approval, my dad’s approval and everyone else’s approval that I created great expectations for myself.  These expectations would never be met as I set them so high they in themselves created tension and stress that resulted in failure and disappointment within me.  This state of mind was the stage setting for a dramatic play, a play that was to unfold with the births of my boys.

….to be continued….

(more about my sons in this post: My 3 Sons)

4 thoughts on “Thoughts From Years Past.14

  1. Wow! What a great read. Know you are not alone in your writings of years past. I’ve “started” at least three books but ended up putting all on the back burner due to a lack of confidence. I LOVED reading about your 3 sons! I could have gone on and on and on had you wrote more on that post. You’ve opened up my OCD and obsessiveness though. I remember the show, but I cannot for the life of me remember the voices from the background. Now I’m going to have to channel surf the “nostalgia” TV stations to look for the show! LOL!

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    • Thanks for reading my posts – it means a great deal to me you take the time out of your day for me. I have the same feelings: lacking confidence for writing a book. As my ‘About’ indicates, I have not had a special life – not much different from anyone else. I think my blog will be the substitute for my book.
      Have a great day! 🙂


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