Drink, Drink, Drink

This is a sensitive subject – not sure the true reason for even wanting to write about this except my purpose of this blog is to write about ‘my life’.  Drinking is part of my life and I know some readers of my blog are going to completely disagree with this post.

Here it goes –

I mentioned in my post ‘Addictions or Habits or Routines’ that I have these addictions: alcohol, nicotine, tanning.  Alcohol has been in my life for many years; there are times I would drink a great deal, then stop completely only to start again.  This on and off drinking habit has been around for about 40 years now, since my teen years.  Now, currently, today I drink daily because I am addicted to alcohol or I have a habit of drinking and then stopping and starting drinking again or I like the routine of drinking.

I do not necessarily concern myself with my drinking mainly because it is my life, my body and I am able to make decisions about me that affect me.  I know the consequences of long term alcohol consumption, yet I continue to drink.  I am a responsible drinker in that I do not drink and drive – I have a designated driver available to me or I do not drink when I know I will be driving.  I also wake every morning bright and early ready to take care of my daily responsibilities and I do not think about when I will have my next drink.   My drinking time usually starts around 4:00 in the afternoon and continues till bedtime, usually 9:00-10:00 pm.  So am I an alcoholic?

Here are excerpts from The NIH (National Institute on Health) website about ‘Drinking Levels Defined’ –

Binge Drinking:

Binge drinking as a pattern of drinking that brings blood alcohol concentration (BAC) levels to 0.08 g/dL. This typically occurs after 4 drinks for women and 5 drinks for men—in about 2 hours.

Heavy Drinking:

Heavy drinking as drinking 5 or more drinks on the same occasion on each of 5 or more days in the past 30 days.

Low Risk for Developing an Alcohol Use Disorder (AUD):

For men, it is defined as no more than 4 drinks on any single day and no more than 14 drinks per week. Research shows that only about 2 in 100 people who drink within these limits have an AUD. 

Ok, there you have it; I am in the heavy drinking category and have AUD.  On the NIH site I read some questions to ask to assess oneself with AUD.  Of the 11 questions they asked, I answered ‘Yes’ to 1 question.

I ask again “So, am I an alcoholic?”  I guess I may be per the definition of the word – but I answered ‘Yes’ to 1 question indicating I have AUD – I understand the effects of heavy drinking – but I continue to do it anyway.

7 thoughts on “Drink, Drink, Drink

  1. Okay, and I’m not meaning any disrespect nor to diminish what is YOUR experience in any way, okay – know that first. And yeah it’s your life and your body and you’re more than old enough to be accountable for this decision and to handle it responsibility. My question is: Does it BOTHER you though? I think every adult (maybe especially those born in a certain decade in a certain country) has some kind of ‘addiction’. “Addiction” has become a sort of buzz word (no pun intended..). But the problem I have with this wholesale categorizing of ourselves into boxes labelled “alcoholic” or “sex addict” or “drug addict”…is that we’re told we have choices and as long as we take responsibility for those choices, then (to me) it’s nobodies business what we do. As long as it’s not harming anyone else of course. Do you feel you are harming someone else? Your children perhaps by depriving them of your company if you die of liver disease due to your excessive drinking? If the answer is no, and you’ve made peace with that, then I say enjoy the experience and don’t feel bad about it.

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    • I do appreciate your honestly, really I do. I do not feel I am harming anyone else except myself because long term drinking will have some effect on my body. I am not bothered by my drinking habit. One reason for writing my blog is to tell the readers and eventually my family (mainly kids) who I am and what my life is about, the good in some people’s eyes and the bad in other people’s eyes. I guess my point, is I AM living my life the way I want to – and some people may see me as a person that should overcome these labels, to me they are just labels and they do not describe who I am – they are just a part of me. I hope that makes some sense. I really enjoy your comments and I never feel you are disrespectful. 🙂

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  2. You know, now you have me worried. Am I an alcoholic too, in that case?
    I used to drink to ease the pain… but then, ah, just an excuse that.. I have a pretty high pain threshold and I do enjoy my alcohol.. My wife used to fume that I was turning into an alcoholic and I used to laugh at her in disbelief. But now I am wondering… is it true after all?
    Thank you for sharing this with us.. I think in a similar way too.. but I tend to justify my actions.. however lame the excuses 🙂

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    • I can relate! Drinking, smoking what ever it is that we are told will kill us, may or may not kill us, time will tell. The point I try to make is, it is my decision, for better or worst and I live my life the way I want to live it, no matter what people think. I in no way want to hurt anyone else with my behaviors.

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      • Yes, I know.. and the last lines touched me… when my daughter was three, she told me she would hate to see me dead.. and it hurt me real bad.. I promised her I would quit smoking and drinking after that.. and I still haven’t stopped.. does that make me selfish? I guess. But like you said.. above.. all those things..

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  3. hum….interetesting post….I now people who drink every day, like you in the evening after work, and then they get up and go to work in the morning and lead a very productive day, also they don’t drink on certain days, its more like a pleasure thing after work, ease the stress sort of…they do not consider themselves alcoholics, but are they??? they are active productive adults…I am not a drinker, or smoker but I am a food a-holic….and my kids have stressed to me that they would love me to be around for a while longer…so that is one of the reasons I am on a journey to better health..I want to be around….hummm good post….

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