I am a sensitive man, a weak individual, a person with feelings, thoughts, dreams, 55 – still crying.
I cry when I watch a sad movie; I cry when I watch an inspirational movie.
I cry when I watch a news story about someone who unconditionally helps others; I cry when I watch a news story about the killing of innocent people, animals and nature.
I cry at weddings; I cry at funerals.
I cry when my sons do not call; I cry when my sons do call.
I cry when I hurt people; I cry when people hurt me.
I cry when I am a failure; I cry when I am a success.
So why do I cry so much? I am a man and should not be crying because it is a sign of weakness.
webmd.com has the following –
People with a history of trauma have been found to cry more, Sideroff says. That’s especially true, he says, if they dwell on that past. “If you keep referring back to the past of trauma or emotional pain, it will generate more feelings of hurt.”
Is this why I cry more than others? I still refer to the emotional pain of years past? Am I a vulnerable person?
howstuffworks.com has the following information –
Overall, it’s important to remember that crying is a critical part of the human emotional makeup, just as laughing is. While you may not want to cry in front of your boss or an ex-boyfriend who’s with his beautiful new girlfriend, it is largely believed to be better both emotionally and physically to “let it out” rather than keeping it all inside.
My crying comes from my emotional makeup, that part of me; that individual me, that special me that makes me different from everyone else in the world. It may be my emotional makeup was to a certain degree learned at a young age when I decided I was ‘stupid’, ‘worthless’, ‘different’ and these thoughts created a negative attitude toward myself, others and life. Is this true?
I am over my self-defeating labeling, but I still cry.