Another documented ‘Thoughts From Years Past’ that reflects what was going on in my life at a particular time. My post ‘I want to write a book’ describes my desire to write a book and several times in the past started this process, without proceeding very far. In my post ‘Thoughts From Years Past.16’, I ended with ‘We just were not ready for another baby.’
The following documentation is a continuation of those pages.
Thoughts I wrote from September, 2004 – (unedited from original writing)
By the time the third son was born in early autumn of 1986, I was really feeling the pressures of life. Another C-section took place to bring him into the world and another bundle of joy to bring home. Within a month he was back in the hospital with an infection and had to be on an IV for a month to fight it. As he lay in the hospital baby bed with the IV in his head, he seemed peaceful without fear. A small cup was taped to his head to cover the IV and prevent it from being accidentally removed. I have photos of his grandma holding him in her arms and can remember all the concern everyone had for his health. The infection was fought and soon he came back home to be with his brothers. These babies soon became young children and with no fault of their own, would bring so much stress and instability in an already distressed mind. I had no way of knowing at the beginning what the years were going to bring. The stress of work and children would create such turmoil in a weak mind full of doubt and pessimism. The confusion of my mind and the craziness I felt would lead to significant depression that would create a life changing event which would occur in the very near future.
….to be continued….
(more about my sons in this post: My 3 Sons)
(more about my depression in this post: The Great Depression of the 1980s)