A Week’s Occurrence

A couple of months ago I had an issue.  Without going into details, something was occurring with my body that was unusual and I had some cause for concern.  This occurrence started the day my son #3 married and lasted a week.  During this week I contacted my doctor who is busy and short on staff and therefore was unable to get in to see him.  I already had plans to schedule an appointment for my physical as I usually do this every couple of years.  I never see my doctor except for physicals because I am never sick and my physicals always result in being healthy with no issues.

So during this week’s occurrence with my body, I had a slight concern about it which resulted in me thinking about what was going on.  I then made the mistake and Googled my symptoms, not a good idea as the mind wants to take the worst and then expand on it, as I did.

During this week’s occurrence with my body, I am thinking the worse and rethinking what I have always said I would or in my case would not do if I became seriously ill.  When I refer to seriously ill I refer to a life threating disease – this is in my mind is the cause of my occurrence.  I have always told my partner if I ever become sick with a life threating disease, I do not want medical treatment, I accept the consequences and why would I want to extend my life when I will be dying someday anyway?

This post is by no means is to downplay life threating diseases and I by no means have intentions to disrespect those that have gone through a life threatening disease or have had a loved one that has.  So please do not take offense to my writings on this subject – remember we all have different lives, different experiences, different thoughts and different ways of looking at everything in this world.

Again, I have always told my partner if I ever become sick with a life threating disease, I do not want medical treatment, I accept the consequences and why would I want to extend my life when I will be dying someday anyway?  This is easy for me to say while healthy and based on my life; past and present, in my mind this makes sense.  But then there is that week’s occurrence with my body and I am thinking about this.  Do I really mean it?  Do I really accept the consequences?

Well, the occurrence stopped and I do have a physical scheduled in the near future and most likely I am over-thinking this.  (see post: overthink this)

At this time I will stop saying I accept the consequences and why would I want to extend my life when I will be dying someday.  Instead I will wait until that time arrives, if it arrives to rethink about what I will truly do.

12 thoughts on “A Week’s Occurrence

  1. I’m glad you’re having a physical in the near future! I hope everything does come out just fine. I think it is hard to know exactly what we would do in a situation until we’re actually faced with it. I know you’d make the right decision though, but I sure am hoping for a complete bill of health for you!! Best wishes.

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s