On deathclock.com there is ‘The Death Clock’ and the website states –
Welcome to the Death Clock(TM), the Internet’s friendly reminder that life is slipping away… second by second. Like the hourglass of the Net, the Death Clock will remind you just how short life is.
So I proceeded to enter the information, clicked the ‘Check Your Death Clock’ button and received the following –
Okay, by this ‘Death Clock’ I will die in 13 years.
You remember my post ‘My Life My Way’, I wrote about life expectancy, my smoking, my drinking and I should die anywhere in the next 3 to 21 years. I guess the ‘Death Clock’ averaged it out to 13 years; I am unsure where it got the exact date of June 10.
You must be thinking “spearfruit has a fascination with death and dying.” “He has written many posts related to his attempted suicides and other posts related to dying.” “Why is this?”
Well, I have no fascination with death or dying. I just want to keep it as a conscious thought because the seconds are ticking. I want to keep the conscious thought aware in my mind to remind me to live each day the best I can. When I feel anger or sad or upset or controlling or impatient, I want to remind myself, the seconds are ticking. I want this reminder to assist me in making the most of the time left.
My early life struggles are being lifted and released by my writings on this blog. The majority of my life was lived with negative emotions and I want to live the rest of my years with positive ones. I want to make the most of the time left – easier said than done for me. For me, to learn new behaviors and thinking, I must keep reinforcing thoughts in my brain.
We all have different ways and styles to learn something new. I am a visual person, I need to see to learn and I am also a deep thinker. This deep thinking in my early life took me to destruction and wanting to end my life. Then a turn took place and this deep thinking took me to building and improvement. This deep thinking today I desire to take me to fulfillment, contentment, gratification and conclusion.
That conclusion is the end of my life. So until the conclusion, whether June 10, 2028 or before or after – I will continue my deep thinking and live every day, the best possible way I know how.