To Evolve in the 1990s

My post ‘The Great Depression of the 1980s’ resulted in the recovering and rediscovery of myself through therapy and behavior changes.  This decade was the beginning of the road to the true me.  Upon my attempted suicides in the late 1980s, this started me on the extremely long recovery that would finally result in a failed marriage in the 1990s and a decade plus years of therapy.

In 1989 I moved to a much larger city where I continue to reside today and thought the new surrounding would bring better things in me and my life.  This move included my wife and sons as we were still together, but unaware to me at the time, the marriage would be coming to an end very soon.  I was working for my dad and brother who owned fast food restaurants and I had previous experience in managing this type of business, quite successfully I might add.  With the new location, new home and new job, my life would be renewed.  As you are aware, the marriage ended in divorce and the sons where no longer in my life on a daily bases.  I am not quite sure the exact causes for this, it was most likely the depression was still present; and along with the outbursts of anger, the lack of patience and the continued but somewhat better ADD and OCD symptoms led to the final separation and eventual ending of my marriage.

Besides therapy, this decade included medications, failures, successes, too many bad relationships, but also discovering the true me. This decade played an important role in my life and was a major turning point for me.  The learning about myself; my thinking, acting, reacting and behaving all started to make some sense.  I was then starting to learn to grow, overcome and deal with my mind and eventually life started changing for the better.  This process was certainly not overnight and honestly is still a work in progress.  But the progress I made in the 1990s was a significant turning point that started leading me in the right direction.

Though it was better than the 1980s, there definitely were challenges to overcome.  More about me and who I am would be revealed this decade and another event would take place with more struggles arising and these struggles would be dealt with.

This new event in this decade would lead to more depression and issues within the already defective mind I had, but it did lead me to a different life, a different path, a different chapter that brought me to where I am today.

The ‘The Great Depression of the 1980s’ led me ‘To Evolve in the 1990s’ and to prepare me for an improved me, but not perfect me in the future.

9 thoughts on “To Evolve in the 1990s

  1. Aint nobody perfect anyway! So that’s okay. But it’s good to see that you’ve very effectively mapped out and understood those past decades. I do the same thing. You’re moving forward Spearfruit, keep moving, keep living, keep working towards that improvement and it will happen and life will improve as well.

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    • Thank you very much – yes, keep moving forward I will. Improvements are taking place, sometimes at a snail’s pace, but taking place indeed. Thanks for reading and commenting – I hope you have a great weekend. 🙂

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