my sexuality will die with me

Sexuality is more than physical, body to body or sexually active or porn or fantasy or orgasm.

My feelings, my life, me, who am I, who I want to spend my life with, who I want to be beside me when I die.

I loved people in the past, I love people in the present.

I will love people in the future, I will love people from the past, from the present.

I have physically expressed my love for people in the past, I physically express my love for people in the present.

I will physically express my love for people in the future.

Love is expressed in many different ways – who I express this love to is for different reasons.

These reasons are family, close friends, a person to share my life with.

Sexuality is not just sexual identity, sexual activity, sexual orientation or gender or lust or sensuality or preference or obsession.

I love the person I am in love with, the person that brings me happiness, the person that brings the best in me, the person I want to be physically with.

To other people, this person does not matter – only to me does this person matter.

I love my family, I love my friends, I love my dog, I love my life – is this part of sexuality?

Being in love and making love and giving love and providing love – is this part of sexuality?

Who I love, who you love, who we all love – is this part of sexuality?

For me, sexuality is more than physical, body to body or sexually active or porn or fantasy or orgasm.

For me, sexuality is me, sexuality is love, sexuality is human, sexuality is normal, sexuality is healthy, sexuality is sexual.

My life of the past, my life of the current, my life of the future – is this part of sexuality?

My life before it was a life, my life after it will no longer be a life – is this part of sexuality?

Who I am, what I am, who I was, what I will be – is this part of sexuality?

I am no different than my family, I am no different than my friends, am I different than you?

I have lived this life as me, for me, for someone else, for my children, for my sexuality.

So I ask, what is sexuality?

Is sexuality you, is it me, is it who we are, who we want to be, who we are not?

Is sexuality shameful, disgraceful, unaccepting, non-negotiable, fearful?

Is sexuality exciting, moving, respectful, enlighten?

Is sexuality me, you, everyone, us?

I will die someday and my sexuality will die with me.

I will die someday knowing my sexuality was part of my life, was me, was my life, and just was.

I do not judge people and sexuality, we have always been sexuality, we will always be sexuality.

I do not judge people, I will not judge people, I will not judge sexuality.

I will die someday and my sexuality will die with me.

Sexuality is more than physical, body to body or sexually active or porn or fantasy or orgasm.

My feelings, my life, me, who am I, who I want to spend my life with, who I want to be beside me when I die.

This to me is sexuality.

18 thoughts on “my sexuality will die with me

  1. This was a great post and one that made me think–I really have never given sexuality much thought. It just “is”. It is part of our being and always will be. You worded this so eloquently. Thank you for the lovely thoughts and words!

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