Sometimes I will write a post and not finish it for different reasons. I started this post last year and I do not remember why I did not finish it – but decided now was a good time.
The following words were written on May 17, 2015 –
On social media, I recently read about a person’s encounter with people who smoke. This person observed a smoker who had no teeth, was coughing and had a ‘smoker’s voice’. This person wrote that is was clear to them that this was cancer waiting to happen.
I remember a time when employees could smoke at their job in their cubicles. Many changes have occurred referring to smoking and smokers. I understand that smoking is bad and can cause illness and death. I understand smoking affects those people that do not smoke. I understand the laws that prevent smoking in public buildings and certain areas within a city. What I do not understand is why those that do not smoke think they can diagnose cancer. Why is this?
Ok, I get it – I am ranting some because as a smoker I do get a little irritated that nonsmokers seem to know more than I about the outcomes of smoking. I am a courteous smoker; I do not smoke in my own home, when somewhere else I go hide to smoke as to not bother anyone else and I do not like the smell of smoke – I hate the smell of smoke in clothes, in rooms, etc.
My point is I know smoking kills and I choose to smoke. I know smoking can kill others and I choose not to smoke around them. I know smoking can shorten my life span and I am ok with that.
The following words I am writing today –
I have smoked off and on since I was 15 years old – 40 years now! I have quit smoking on several occasions cold turkey with the longest non-smoking period of 4 years. Why do I quit then to go back to start again?
In my post ‘Addictions or Habits or Routines‘, I concluded with the following –
My point to this post is I have a habit of being drawn to addictions and routinely have quit addictions and started the same addictions again time after time. So are addictions an issue or is it the routinely stopping and starting the habits of addictions the issue, or is it the habits that cause the routines of addictions the issue?
On my recent visit to my urologist Dr. F., he told me I needed to quit smoking. He said the tumor on my bladder will have to be surgically removed, and continuing to smoke, the next time the whole bladder may need to be removed.
Today I am still smoking, and tomorrow I will smoke, but the next day is the day I will once again quit – hopefully for the last time.