I woke this morning my usual time between 4-5 AM with the same thoughts on my mind as I had when I laid my head down on the pillow the night before. As I am drinking my coffee I think about these thoughts and I think to myself ‘Was that a dream?’ Then it occurs to me, ‘No it’s not a dream.’ The events of the day before really did occur.
In my post ‘My Urologist: Dr. F.‘, I wrote the following –
The visit with Dr. F. involved me discussing my symptoms and the result of a hospital visit involving a CT scan I had last month. He indicated I most likely have a tumor on my bladder and it would need to be surgically removed. Before the removal, first a cystoscopy will take place. Per webmd.com, here is the definition –
Cystoscopy (say “sis-TAW-skuh-pee”) is a test that allows your doctor to look at the inside of your bladder and urethra. It’s done using a thin, lighted tube called a cystoscope.
The doctor inserts this tube into your urethra and on into the bladder. Your doctor can see areas of your bladder and urethra that usually don’t show up well on X-rays.
Your doctor can also insert tiny surgical tools through the tube to take samples of tissue (biopsy) or samples of urine.
In today’s post I write the following –
The cystoscopy took place yesterday and the results are I have bladder cancer. Surgery to remove the tumor on my bladder is scheduled for February 10 at which time a biopsy will be taken to determine the stage of the cancer. Dr. F. believes the cancer is superficial meaning most likely the cancer has not grown into the muscle layer of my bladder. If his early diagnosis is correct then after the tumor is removed I will then have 6 weeks of intravesical therapy.
Per cancer.org –
Intravesical therapy for bladder cancer
With intravesical therapy, the doctor puts a liquid drug directly into the bladder (through a catheter) rather than giving it by mouth or injecting it into a vein. This could be either immunotherapy, which causes the body’s own immune system to attack the cancer cells, or chemotherapy.
Medicines given this way mainly affect the cells lining the inside of the bladder, with little to no effect on cells elsewhere. This means that any cancer cells outside of the bladder lining, including those that have grown deeply into the bladder wall, are not treated. Drugs put into the bladder also can’t reach cancer cells in the kidneys, ureters, and urethra, or those that have spread to other organs.
For this reason, intravesical therapy is used only for non-invasive (stage 0) or minimally invasive (stage I) bladder cancers.
I will be honest with you, I am experiencing many mixed emotions; they are natural and to be expected. But ultimately once I have completed experiencing these mixed emotions, I will be strong and positive.