Many of you know I dealt with major depression as a young man in my 20s that led me to attempted suicides and a long road to recovery and discovery.
My attempted suicides occurred in or around 1987 and this is when the long road of therapy would begin. I remember visiting several different psychiatrists & psychologists over the first couple of years. 2 years later, after my wife and I got back together after a separation I had the desire to move to a new location. To start fresh in a new location, my wife, kids and I moved to where I currently live today. This was in 1989 and upon moving I found a therapist I was comfortable with, My journey to continue my self-helping and self-healing would continue for another 12 years. There was the taking of medication to control my depression and anxiety: there was individual therapy and eventually group therapy.
It took me approximately 13 years to learn about me, to understand me and to understand my thinking and to understand my behaviors. These years of therapy gave me the strength to overcome a major depression that once was going to cause my death. These years of therapy raised my self-esteem and to have a better self-awareness and a better understanding. These years of therapy helped to better my relationships with family and friends. These years of therapy led me to no longer needing medications to control my behavior and control my mind.
I learned to accept compliments from others without minimizing them. I learned to be self-confident and to be giving to myself. I learned and I grew and I became a better person, not a perfect person, but I was a better person.
In 2001 that long road of therapy would end with the not needing medication any longer, I was feeling great and decided to end my individual and group therapy. The day had come that I had worked for so very long, so many years, so many medications, so many therapy sessions, it was all coming to an end.
As I said goodbye to my therapist and my friends I met in group therapy, it was tough. I may never see these people again; I shared my personal life with these people for many years, these friends who in return helped me to overcome difficulties and to love myself.
People come and go in our lives, some for a brief time and others for a longer stay – saying goodbye to these people is just part of the journey in life.
These people I said goodbye to many years ago, but the memories I have of them are still with me today.
The therapy I said goodbye to many years ago, but the benefits I gained from it will last a lifetime.