You may have heard the phrase ‘You are your own worst enemy.’ I know this is true for me.
When I was a young man I had the picture in my head. I wanted it badly; but I was my own worst enemy.
I have my way of doing things: it is my way or no way. I wanted it badly: but I was my own worst enemy.
My insecurities my low self-esteem; it was my entire fault. I wanted it badly: but I was my own worst enemy.
But, I am slowly getting over this.
malandarras.com article ‘How To Defeat Your Own Worst Enemy’ starts with the following –
For as long as I can remember, I have battled with an enemy.
This enemy followed me everywhere I went.
It talked down to me and told me that I wasn’t as good as everyone else
Made me self-conscious, shy and worried about what other people were thinking
Filtered out good things that happened and told me to focus on only the bad
After decades of battling with my enemy, which I decided was the entire world – I wore myself out and took a breather to regroup.
And that’s when it hit me.
The enemy was inside me. It had nothing to do with the outside world. The enemy was a never-ending stream of unspoken thoughts going on in my own head.
Yes, I relate to this.
In my post ‘Benefits of Therapy’, I wrote the following –
I learned to accept compliments from others without minimizing them. I learned to be self-confident and to be giving to myself. I learned and I grew and I became a better person, not a perfect person, but I was a better person.
In my post ‘I am grateful for that person now dead to me’, I wrote the following –
I am grateful for depression, attempted suicides, prescribed medications, many years of therapy, struggles, pain, self-abuse and tears.
I am grateful for many things in my previous life – that someone else that I barely know – a person that is distant and now dead to me.
You may have heard the phrase ‘You are your own worst enemy.’ I know this was once true for me.
I am an older man and I have the picture in my head. I want it badly; I am not my own worst enemy.
I had my way of doing things: it is not my way or no way. I want it badly: I am not my own worst enemy.
I am secure with a high self-esteem; it is no longer my fault. I want it badly: I am not my own worst enemy.