A Breakup Letter

I wrote a post last year titled ‘A Love Letter‘, and here are those words –

I love you –

Because I am there every morning waiting for your lips to touch me and my sweetness becomes you.

I am there when you are lonely, when you are having fun, when you travel to new destinations, when you are learning, when you are watching TV, when you need a friend because you know –

I love you –

Because I am there for you till day’s end and time to close your eyes ready for dreams.

Our time spent together is sometimes troublesome and turbulent, but you come back to me because you know –

I love you –

Because I have been there for you year after year during the good and bad, the highs, the lows and I have never given up on you.

You can always depend on me during times of need because you know –

I love you –

Because past times our separations were brief, you always came back to me.

You came back to me because you know –

I love you –

Smoking

In today’s post I write the following –

Smoking and I are separated again – today marks 3 months since our split.  Do I miss smoking?  Yes, almost every day.  But I have not missed it enough to go back into a relationship with it.  As many of you know, I had a cancerous tumor removed from my bladder in February of this year.  One of the main causes of bladder cancer is smoking and it was strongly suggested to me I quit smoking.  So that I did.  None of you know this, but Gary smoked also – we were smoking buddies and both very much enjoyed our smoking.  But because of the cancer I received, Gary quit also – the same day as me.

So today we both celebrate 3 months smoke free.

I end this post with my breakup letter –

I love you –

I miss you and days I long for your presence in my life.

Thank you for sharing parts of my life with you.

Thank you for being near me during times of need.

I love you –

Now that you are gone, I miss you at times.

I love you –

But your toxic love created harm in me.

I will miss you, but will move on, because you know –

I love me –

Terry

 

 

58 thoughts on “A Breakup Letter

    • Thank you, it is worth it! The three months have come and gone quickly and I still have my days I think about it. The good thing is Gary and I have each other’s support – that helps. Thanks for stopping by today to read and comment. Happy Tuesday! 🙂

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  1. Congratulations on your quitting. I also loved smoking and after three years I still get the psychological urge to have one. Although I have had a slight breathing problem when I quit that does not have gone away. I notice it especially during a cold. Congratulations and hang in there day by day, minute by minute it gets easier as time goes by.

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  2. Yay for you! Keep up the good work. It is so hard. I haven’t smoked for 26 years, but was a 2 pack a dayer before that. Don’t want it anymore, but now that you mention it….. I could puff on one – lol – just kidding. Yay for NO SMOKING!

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  3. What a beautifully written and powerful post. Quitting smoking is horribly tough – you two have done it (you won’t go back) and you did it for love. For love of you – your love for you and Gary’s love for you. There is no greater nor more compelling reason 🙂 Happy Three Months Day to you both x

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    • Thank you Osyth, it has been easy this time and I think it is because Gary and I have been supporting each other through the process. We both really wanted to quit and so we have – Yea! 🙂

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      • It helps so much to do something together with the other half of you. I have been running these past couple of weeks. I have a goal and running is a sensible part of it BUT I hate running – my head tells me to stop stop stop every step step step. So my husband (who is actually a very good runner) has been sacrificing his cool runnings for my shameful strugglings and it is beginning to pay rewards. We are going to do the town 5K Spring Run together in 10 days time and I am confident that I will manage not to make him look a total spanner. As we both know – love is all you need 🙂 Happy Tuesday to you and I hope the weather is less miserable there than here

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  4. Best breakup ever! It’s weird but when I got diagnosed with skin cancer, I quit smoking that same day. It’s been over 6 years and I have to say, I don’t miss it one bit! So happy you quit!

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    • Thank you Catherine, I am happy I quit also – most of the time. I am sure when I make the 6 years – I will not miss it al all! Appreciate you stopping by today! 🙂

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  5. This post is music to my ears. I am so happy that you and Gary love each other and yourselves more than cigarettes! Believe me I know what you are feeling – I smoked for over 40 years. It will get easier and easier.

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    • Thank you Bernadette, I appreciate your support and understanding! I figure if I can get through these first 3 months, I can certainly keep going – and I will! Happy Day to you! 🙂

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