In the past 11 ½ months I have written posts about life, death and legacy; you can view these posts under the category ‘Attitudes, Feelings and Views’.
What do I want to leave when I am gone? When my last breath is taken and my eyes see for one last time, what do I want to leave behind in the minds of people that know me?
I ask again, what do I want to leave when I am gone?
Originally it was a book; a book about me and my life. Would anyone read it and would anyone really care?
Then it was a blog about me and my life. Would anyone read it and would anyone really care?
When I started this blog almost a year ago my intention was to let my sons, the rest of the family and any friends to have access to it. Will I do this? I have not totally decided when I will provide this blog to my sons and my family. I am unsure if I am ready to let them have access to it. It is not finished, it is uncompleted and a work in progress. How long I continue this blog remains to be seen, but the book I wanted to write, it could still take place because the writings are here on my blog.
What do I want to leave when I am gone? When my last heart beat takes place and my nostrils take in the last oxygen, what do I want to leave behind here on earth?
Does it really matter that I leave anything at all? I often think about my grandmother who died several years ago, she resonates within me. She was a great woman who in her doings and her ways unknowingly became a teacher to me. I have a few pictures of her and a few knick-knacks of hers and I have her bible. But more importantly I have her memory and the things she taught me. She never wrote a book, never had a blog, but instead lived a life as a wonderful person; a mother, a grandmother, a great-grandmother, a great-great-grandmother, but more importantly a teacher.
My life is very different from my grandmothers; it has taken a very different road – but I can strive to be like her; me as a wonderful person, a father, a grandfather and maybe a great-great grandfather, and maybe even a teacher.
Times have changed; they are very different than when my grandmother was alive and I lived near her. Today my sons are further away and I am here, the locations are different and the lives are different.
What do I want to leave when I am gone? What do I want to leave them when I am gone?
Maybe this blog and maybe someday that book will be available to them to read and maybe, just maybe they will learn something from me.