The next appointment with Dr. F.

In my post ‘it’s not a dream‘, I wrote the following –

The cystoscopy took place yesterday and the results are I have bladder cancer.  Surgery to remove the tumor on my bladder is scheduled for February 10 at which time a biopsy will be taken to determine the stage of the cancer.  Dr. F. believes the cancer is superficial meaning most likely the cancer has not grown into the muscle layer of my bladder.  If his early diagnosis is correct then after the tumor is removed I will then have 6 weeks of intravesical therapy.

In my post ‘Good News outweighs Bad News; for now‘, I wrote the following –

The good news is that I will not be participating in the intravesical therapy.  This is because the cancer HAD grown into the connective tissue layer outside of my bladder lining.  The intravesical therapy would not help to assist in treating these cancer cells.  This is mixed news – no catheters – no possible side effects – yes higher risk of cancer coming back.


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The good news is that the cancer had NOT grown into the muscle layer of my bladder.  This is very good news – I get to keep my bladder.

The bad news is that the cancer can easily come back.  Every 3 months for the next couple of years, I will be visiting the urologist and having a scope performed to search for cancer that may grow back.  If caught early, then again surgery would be required to have the cancer removed.   This is mixed news – more surgery – yes catheter – yes, to keeping my bladder.

The good news is that I can get back to preparing for the upcoming move and not worry about what I originally thought I might have to deal with in the coming weeks.  This is very good news – no more invasive medical instruments inserted into my body for at least 3 months.

Good News outweighs Bad News; for now

In today’s post, I write the following –

My 3 months are up, and two weeks from today I will visit my urologist and have a cystoscopy performed and lab tests on my urine.  Will the cancer be back?

Since my surgery, my bladder habits have increased in that I am urinating, peeing or going to the restroom on a very frequent bases.  I will be honest with you, I have always drunk a great amount of water and still do.  But now my bladder cannot hold it as long.  So, now I ‘go’ quite often.  This is especially annoying at night, because I no longer receive restful sleep – I am ‘going’ literally every hour of the night.

In the past month I have experienced increased burning during urination and in my bladder.  Yesterday I passed a blood clot.  Does this indicate the cancer has returned?

I guess in two weeks I will have the answer to this question.

91 thoughts on “The next appointment with Dr. F.

  1. No wonder you have been out of sorts, dear Terry. I rather think you must be feeling pretty scared just now. I can’t give you advice on how to feel. I can’t give you advice on what to think (overthinking is symptomatic of your default mind-set given your mental health history), I can’t tell you not to worry. But I CAN tell you that you are in my thoughts. I CAN send you my warmest and most healing thoughts through the aether. And I CAN send you love. And to Gary too. Being the support is not always easy. Hugs, light and love to you, my friend x

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    • Thank you Osyth, I can always depend on you to send me warm and caring thoughts! I know all will be okay and I will deal with things as they come along. Honestly this is not a good time for this to occur again. So, will see what the results are in a couple of weeks and made decisions then. Appreciate you! 🙂

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  2. Let’s hope not, Terry. There is every possibility that this is a consequence of your previous surgery. Given the burning and blood clot, I would try and seek an earlier appointment with your surgeon than two weeks. He might be able to give you some medication immediately which will help with the hourly visits to the bathroom. Please be gentle to yourself and give yourself a break. No wonder you have been feeling down again. Sending virtual kisses and sprinkling fairy dust to your poor little penis and bladder. I have frequent urinary tract infections and they are so painful and invasive.

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    • Thanks Kerry, for your fairy dust on my poor penis and bladder! LOL, you are too funny my friend. I called the doctor’s office yesterday and they are booked solid and unable to get me in any earlier. So, 2 weeks will go fast and then we will know more information and go from there. Appreciate you and your virtual kisses! 🙂

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    • Bernadette, I did call yesterday and they are booked solid and could not fit me in. The urologist was informed of what I was experiencing, but I guess 2 weeks will not make a big difference. All is well for now, I will have more info in a couple of weeks. Thanks for reading and commenting, happy day to you! 🙂


  3. Praying that it all goes as well as possible .
    But just as your other friends have mentioned , and if you haven’t done so already , maybe contact your doctor about your symptoms . You may even need some antibiotics or other kind of treatment to sort things out so that the cystoscopy can be done in the best conditions and on the date planed .Just a suggestion Dear Terry.
    Turtle Hugs

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  4. Thinking of you. Hoping the symptoms you are experiencing are something else simple that can be fixed easily. Maybe let your doctor know your concerns and see if you can get in sooner?

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  5. Blood clots can also be passed with bladder infections. Burning is also a sign of a possible infection. The mind is a powerful tool. Use it to (mentally) support your health. Stay positive and live each day appreciating all the people that support and love you. Obstacles can be little or huge; regardless, we can overcome ALL of them.

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    • Thank you Dr. J. for the encouraging words and support. I agree about overcoming obstacles, I certainly have had my share of them. I appreciate you reading and commenting. Have a great day! 🙂

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  6. With everything going on in your life… moving, traveling, big purchases- it’s no wonder you’ve been out of sorts, but add not getting a good night’s sleep! Well that’s just torture. I am so sorry that your plate is fully loaded (and then some). Thinking of you, praying for good health, easy breezy days and peaceful nights.

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  7. Hey Terry, I would just like to re-iterate the words of Dr J. The mind is a powerful tool and can be used for good and bad against ourselves in equal measure so try to use it for good. I will tell you a couple of weeks ago I had a pain in one of my chaps. So bad I couldn’t get comfy. Then with the loss of energy I was thinking Uh Oh…. I couldn’t get an appointment for two weeks so for that time I tried to remain positive even though some days each movement made that hard. The outcome of it all was simply inflammation and a lack of energy.
    As the Doc said, the mind is a powerful tool……

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  8. Sending prayers and positive thoughts Terry. God has the final say and he is a healer so whatever may come let it come because I believe that you will be fine. There is nothing to big for our God!

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  9. Why wait two weeks? If you’re worried, can’t you be seen sooner? I’m sorry you’re going through this – and you’re much more patient than I as the waiting would drive me nuts.

    Hopung for you to get the, “All’s well” sooner rather than later.

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    • I am not really worried about it, and the Dr. is booked solid. It is only a little over a week before my appointment. I have been through this before, so I know what to expect. I appreciate your comment and hope you have a great day. 🙂


  10. Bummer…..sometimes its not what it looks like….sometimes its just that, an irritated bladder, inflammation, infection, don’t let your mind work overtime on this one…stress is not healthy and with the house stress on top…..more yoga, more breathing….send you energy and healing thoughts….kat

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    • Thanks kat, I really am okay with what is going on and not letting it get to me. I understand I am at some point at a high risk for the cancer to come back. I am hoping it is not this quick to come back. Will know more next week. I appreciate you and your kind words – always! 🙂


  11. Terry, Last week we were at Johns Hopkins where Charley has been involved in cancer trial studies for over 8 years. He is now in remission, but we are always prepared for the next phase. So many great cancer treatments have been developed over the last few years. Researchers are modifying the DNA of various viruses like listeria and polio and using them to kill cancer cells -training the immune system to recognize the cells so it can fight the cancer. Amazing results – so please always keep hope. I’m sure there will be a cure soon .Clare

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  12. Have had my own dance with breast cancer and have worked with cancer patients for years – best clue is to get on with life and try not to give these invasive tests any energy. Yes I know it’s easier said than done but we do have a choice where we place our energy and by placing that energy we create the causes for things to happen or not.
    The medical world doesn’t have all the answers, find your own way through this as you have the strength, resilience and will find the right resources for your best outcome.
    Good luck kind gent!

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    • Kate, thank you very much for the reassuring comment. I had my first round with the cancer early this year and I admit it was tough. Now that I have been through it once, I do not give much power to it. I say that now, without having any more information – will know more next week. Thank you for your kind comment and I hope all is well with you concerning your cancer. Have a happy day my friend. 🙂


      • I had radical surgery Sept 2012 and enjoy my life … can’t give it any energy. Some well intentioned friends say I shouldn’t forget about it not realising that we can never do that … but focus your energy on the good things in your life or the tests and doctors can consume all your time and energy. They are necessities but ‘living’ should be given high priority.
        Big hug:)

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    • Thank you Cathleen, thoughts and prayers are appreciated! My attitude is good, even knowing I will be having another surgery in the weeks to come. Thank you for stopping by to read and comment today. Happy Friday! 🙂

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