In my post ‘What is meditation teaching me?‘, I began with the following –
Meditation – why are you in my life? I asked you to join me and help me, to improve me, to take me and bring me to a better place.
Meditation – why are you in my life? I asked you to teach me, to build me, to journey with me to a better life.
In today’s post, I begin with the following –
I have not written about meditation in my life for quite a while. This is because, I have not been meditating for quite a while. Prior to leaving Dallas, the downsizing, the packing and the moving and the sleeping on the floor and the aches and pains I was experiencing I lost focus and I lost my routine. Now there is the new living arrangement; a 5th wheel in an RV park and then came the quick 3-week voyage to doctor’s visits and now receiving chemotherapy.
I have yet to place meditation back into my routine in my new location with my new voyage.
But meditation never left me; maybe it has temporally from my daily routine, but is has been here when I needed it.
I remember back in February of this year, it was my first surgery to remove cancer and I was nervous and scared. This would be the first time ever in my life that I had surgery and I was nervous and scared. I remember laying on a bed in a pre-surgery room prior to my surgery and having an IV inserted and thinking about what was to take place next. I felt my emotions wanting to take over and I felt like crying, but I did not want to show my weakness to the nurses that were attending to me. I wanted to restrain the emotions and the crying, so I started meditating. The meditation at that time helped me and would again for the next surgery that would take place later in the year; this past June.
You may remember a couple of weeks ago, I had a port inserted into my chest that would be used for receiving chemotherapy. There I was laying on a surgery table with an IV in my hand and oxygen entering my nostrils and machines monitoring my vitals. I knew I would be awake during this procedure and was told all would be fine during this time. The people in the room are very nice and I do feel comfortable though nervous and anxious.
I started meditating.
Meditation once again brought me comfort and brought me back to me.
I asked meditation to join me and help me, to improve me, to take me and bring me to a better place.
I asked meditation to teach me, to build me, to journey with me to a better life.
Mediation has accomplished these and will continue to do so as I proceed forward into my journey.
I started meditating.