The number 12

From Angel Therapy website article What is the meaning of Number 12?

Each number has a meaning, especially when you see the number repetitively. The number 12 is a combination of the numbers 1, which means, “Stay positive,” and 2, which means, “Keep the faith.” Together, 12 is a strong message to stay positive, optimistic, and filled with faith . . . because your positive thoughts and faith will create a positive outcome.

In my post ‘Stage 4’, I wrote the following –

The next 12 weeks will involve some powerful drugs being injected into my body to fight cancer.

I will have tough days ahead of me.

I will have days I will be very tired.

And I will have days I will be very inspired.

In today’s post, I write the following –

Chemotherapy will begin this Thursday and continue for the next 12 weeks.  Today, I am having a ‘port’ inserted into my body.

Google Definition –

A port is a small disc made of plastic or metal about the size of a quarter that sits just under the skin. A soft thin tube called a catheter connects the port to a large vein. Your chemotherapy medicines are given through a special needle that fits right into the port. You also can have blood drawn through the port.

I will have 4 cycles of chemotherapy; meaning each Thursday for 2 weeks I will receive the chemotherapy and then have 1 week off – 4 cycles equal 12 weeks.

Upon the completion of chemotherapy, it will be determined what will take place next.  The surgery to remove my bladder may still take place, then again it may not.

Here is the truth about my current situation –

The nodules on my lungs have yet to be identified to be cancer, this has not been determined.  Once the chemotherapy is completed, if these nodules continue to be present, that indicates they are not cancer.  What does this mean in regards to my future treatment?  I would have the surgery to remove my bladder.  Because the cancer has not spread beyond my bladder and nearby nymph nodes, the surgery will take place to remove the origin of the cancer.  Remember this surgery will involve removing my bladder, prostate, nearby nymph nodes and seminal vesicles.  This will be major surgery that will take place approximately 6 weeks after my chemotherapy is completed.

The nodules on my lungs have yet to be identified to be cancer, this has not been determined.  Once the chemotherapy is completed, if these nodules are no longer present, this indicates they were cancer.  What does this mean in regards to my future treatment?  I would not have the surgery to remove my bladder, why do you ask?  Because the cancer has spread from the origin; my bladder and therefore removing it would serve no positive purpose.  The future treatment would be to monitor me for future cancer.

Chemotherapy will begin this Thursday and continue for the next 12 weeks. . . I will keep positive thoughts and faith to create a positive outcome.

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63 thoughts on “The number 12

  1. My husband is from Liverpool and this song is from us both. Keep it in your heart as you are in ours. The next 12 weeks WILL be tough but walk on because, Terry, you will NEVER walk alone, I promise you. Hugs my dear friend. Biggest, warmest hugs.

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  2. Hi Terry, I don’t know if this is of any interest to you, but there is a charity called My CureWear founded via crowfunding by a young entrepreneur called Alex Niles. He had to undergo several rounds of chemo and designed a t-shirt which has a small pocket opening in the chest with a velcro fastening so that people can have their chemo meds administered via a port without having to remove their tops. I was one of the original donors and it has gone from strength to strength. The aim is to provide free tops to cancer patients via sales of supporter t-shirts. Here is a link to their website: http://www.mycurewear.com/ They also have a Facebook page. They are a positive, friendly bunch, they just celebrated their 2 year anniversary and had some special offers for August. As always, sending positive thoughts to you and Gary ☺️👍🏻

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  3. I very much hope that the nodules in your lungs are just that and things go as best planned. I had an ultrasound yesterday for a nodule on my thyroid – it’s likely just a nodule (we are all getting older…) and some blood tests. You will be driven to distraction by the port to start with but then will get used to it. I took my friend every week to MD Anderson to get chemo in her port so I can feel a little of your pain and anxiety. Sending kind thoughts and fairy dust. K Hugs.

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    • Thank you Kerry for the hugs and fairy dust – these always help. The port is in and already feels like a part of me. I really am okay now with the upcoming chemo treatment, but certainly feel I will have moments of emotions and discomfort. I appreciate your support and understanding dear, you are a very good friend. 🙂

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  4. This is tough news, but sadly I already was prepared a bit… 😦 And I can not even begin telling you how very impressed I am by your strong and positive attitude towards everything! I think this might well be the key to live through all of this, Terry!!! Keep thinking about you everyday and will be at your (virtual) side for the next 12 weeks as much as I can!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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