From Angel Therapy website article What is the meaning of Number 12? –
Each number has a meaning, especially when you see the number repetitively. The number 12 is a combination of the numbers 1, which means, “Stay positive,” and 2, which means, “Keep the faith.” Together, 12 is a strong message to stay positive, optimistic, and filled with faith . . . because your positive thoughts and faith will create a positive outcome.
In my post ‘Stage 4’, I wrote the following –
The next 12 weeks will involve some powerful drugs being injected into my body to fight cancer.
I will have tough days ahead of me.
I will have days I will be very tired.
And I will have days I will be very inspired.
In today’s post, I write the following –
Chemotherapy will begin this Thursday and continue for the next 12 weeks. Today, I am having a ‘port’ inserted into my body.
Google Definition –
A port is a small disc made of plastic or metal about the size of a quarter that sits just under the skin. A soft thin tube called a catheter connects the port to a large vein. Your chemotherapy medicines are given through a special needle that fits right into the port. You also can have blood drawn through the port.
I will have 4 cycles of chemotherapy; meaning each Thursday for 2 weeks I will receive the chemotherapy and then have 1 week off – 4 cycles equal 12 weeks.
Upon the completion of chemotherapy, it will be determined what will take place next. The surgery to remove my bladder may still take place, then again it may not.
Here is the truth about my current situation –
The nodules on my lungs have yet to be identified to be cancer, this has not been determined. Once the chemotherapy is completed, if these nodules continue to be present, that indicates they are not cancer. What does this mean in regards to my future treatment? I would have the surgery to remove my bladder. Because the cancer has not spread beyond my bladder and nearby nymph nodes, the surgery will take place to remove the origin of the cancer. Remember this surgery will involve removing my bladder, prostate, nearby nymph nodes and seminal vesicles. This will be major surgery that will take place approximately 6 weeks after my chemotherapy is completed.
The nodules on my lungs have yet to be identified to be cancer, this has not been determined. Once the chemotherapy is completed, if these nodules are no longer present, this indicates they were cancer. What does this mean in regards to my future treatment? I would not have the surgery to remove my bladder, why do you ask? Because the cancer has spread from the origin; my bladder and therefore removing it would serve no positive purpose. The future treatment would be to monitor me for future cancer.
Chemotherapy will begin this Thursday and continue for the next 12 weeks. . . I will keep positive thoughts and faith to create a positive outcome.
My heart is breaking.
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Laurel, I remain positive through this process and I appreciate your support very much.
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Thanks for the update on your plan. I am so glad to hear your continued positive attitude – I am going to think about 12 entirely differently today and from now on when I see it!
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The number 12 certainly has a different meaning for me also Sarah. It will be a reminder for me and with the support from you and others – I will get through this. Thanks for stopping by.
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You know I wish the best for you always. Thoughts, prayers, faith, hugs and everything are coming from me always. xxx
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I know Lynne, you are in your part of the world sending me lots of good vibes, I feel them already. Thank you, your friendship brightens my day.
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Twelve today, tomorrow and always T- big sunshine hugs xx
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Thank you Cheryl, appreciate you very much – and I just received the sunshine hugs!
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xx
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Best of luck. Wishing you all the best. Be well.
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Thank you my friend, I appreciate your support very much.
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One day at a time.
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Sending you lots and lots and lots of love and strength to get through these next 12 weeks. xxx Alexis
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Thank you Alexis for your love and strength, I certainly know your support as well as others will help me in the next 12 weeks.
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Wish you all the best and send you lots of positive thoughts.
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Thank you Irene, I appreciate you very much!
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Sending loving healing thoughts dear terry xxoo
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Jodi, thank you for your support, you are one that brightens my day.
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And you brighten my day too my friend. Xo
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Sending a lot of positive thoughts your way! I am very serious when I tell you, I think of you often. I truly do. Stay strong.
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Thank you my friend, I believe you and know you and many others here are here for me. This support is overwhelming and I appreciate you very much. Stay strong I shall.
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XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX kat
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Thank you kat, I smile when I see your comments – you bring me strength.
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hugs and positive thoughts your way dearest Terry! You are a strong and inspirational person and I am thinking of you often. Hugs hugs hugs
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Thank you Lynn for your thoughts and hugs. You are one that is always here for me and I truly am grateful.
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I am grateful for our special friendship and am always here for you! xxxxx
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Don’t forget over the twelve weeks, you also have all of us on the blogosphere being positive and sending you many many vibes of love and positivity, lots of love now and always.
Brooke
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Thank you Brooke, I am certainly a very fortunate person to have many wonderful people here on WP I can rely on for support.
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Keep positive. Sending hugs x
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Thank you, positive is a big word in my vocabulary and I appreciate your hugs.
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My husband is from Liverpool and this song is from us both. Keep it in your heart as you are in ours. The next 12 weeks WILL be tough but walk on because, Terry, you will NEVER walk alone, I promise you. Hugs my dear friend. Biggest, warmest hugs.
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I am full of emotions watching this video Osyth. You, and hubby are very kind and I am very fortunate to have both of you here to help me along the way. I know I am not alone, my heart is filled with many wonderful friends here; especially you!
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You, my dear friend are a lifer and we so look forward to meeting you and Gary when your storm has run its course. In the meantime we are right here calling you on with everyone else who is in your corner and, may I say, it’s pretty crowded because YOU are a wonderful fellow 💫💫
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You my friend bring tears to my eyes – happy tears. 🙂
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Keep on keeping on.
Wishing you oodles of positivity and tons of love to see you through the next few weeks.
xx
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Thank you – I shall keep on keeping on – and your support will help me do just that.
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xxx
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God bless, Terry.
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Thank you Paula, I appreciate you very much. Happy day my friend! 🙂
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Hopes and prayers. Wishing you all the best.
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Thank you very much Sheen, your prayers are appreciated. Have a great day. 🙂
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❤️❤️❤️
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Thank you Jennie. 🙂
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You are very welcome, my friend!
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Sending positive vibes and saying my prayers for you.
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Thank you Roxie, I am receiving the positive vibes, and the prayers are appreciated. Have a happy day! 🙂
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You as well.
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Hi Terry, I don’t know if this is of any interest to you, but there is a charity called My CureWear founded via crowfunding by a young entrepreneur called Alex Niles. He had to undergo several rounds of chemo and designed a t-shirt which has a small pocket opening in the chest with a velcro fastening so that people can have their chemo meds administered via a port without having to remove their tops. I was one of the original donors and it has gone from strength to strength. The aim is to provide free tops to cancer patients via sales of supporter t-shirts. Here is a link to their website: http://www.mycurewear.com/ They also have a Facebook page. They are a positive, friendly bunch, they just celebrated their 2 year anniversary and had some special offers for August. As always, sending positive thoughts to you and Gary ☺️👍🏻
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Thank you Chris for this wonderful charity, I will certainly visit their website. I appreciate your support and positive thoughts. Have a happy day my friend. 🙂
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Good luck today, Terry, thinking of you 😊
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Our Thoughts are with all the way from Ireland. Raw beetroot and Raw carrot juice ( together)are a great little secret to counter act the severity of the treatment.
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Thank you my friend from Ireland. I will certainly give the beetroot and carrot juice a try. Appreciate your comment and suggestion – have a happy day. 🙂
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I very much hope that the nodules in your lungs are just that and things go as best planned. I had an ultrasound yesterday for a nodule on my thyroid – it’s likely just a nodule (we are all getting older…) and some blood tests. You will be driven to distraction by the port to start with but then will get used to it. I took my friend every week to MD Anderson to get chemo in her port so I can feel a little of your pain and anxiety. Sending kind thoughts and fairy dust. K Hugs.
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Thank you Kerry for the hugs and fairy dust – these always help. The port is in and already feels like a part of me. I really am okay now with the upcoming chemo treatment, but certainly feel I will have moments of emotions and discomfort. I appreciate your support and understanding dear, you are a very good friend. 🙂
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Terry, what a beautiful blog post about such a painful topic! I am glad your spirits are high. And we will be here to listen and pray and encourage you EVERY step of the way!
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Thank you Blue, your support with others here will certainly help me along the way. I appreciate your prayers very much. Happy Wednesday. 🙂
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Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way. ❤
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Thank you for your thoughts, prayers and support – I truly appreciate them. Hope your day is happy my friend! 🙂
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Good Luck with your chemo and I know it will be hard but stay strong and each one will be one less. Sending healing thoughts and hugs your way 🙂
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Thank you for the healing thoughts and hugs – they are certainly welcomed. Your support means a great deal to me. Have a happy day. 🙂
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This is tough news, but sadly I already was prepared a bit… 😦 And I can not even begin telling you how very impressed I am by your strong and positive attitude towards everything! I think this might well be the key to live through all of this, Terry!!! Keep thinking about you everyday and will be at your (virtual) side for the next 12 weeks as much as I can!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Sarah, you are one special friend, I am unable to put into words what your support and kindness mean to me. Truly, I appreciate you. 🙂
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Thank you, Terry – there’s no way you could have made me any happier than by saying that – you are one wonderful and beautiful soul! And I’m so glad about our friendship, I really am! 🙂 xxx
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