I wrote these words a couple of weeks ago when feeling down. The past couple of weeks at times have been tiring and I am at times beaten down, but I do get up and continue to move forward.
Just know my friends, though at times my posts are negative and sometimes full of despair, my willingness to move forward and overcome is full of strength and vigor.
the drag –
The drag, the depression; though I have been there before a long, long, long time ago, the memories flood back.
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Feelings, emotions that from a long time ago as a young man, and a young person, experienced; unable to deal with that which was brought to me.
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Today the drag, the depression, though short lived at moments has burst of energy that bring me to tears; bring emotions back; bring feelings that which was me years ago.
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The drag that which brings me down, brings me to tears, brings me to realize feelings, emotions tucked away years ago are there to be relived, to be re-experienced, to be brought back, to be used once again.
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The drag, the depression; daunting at times, short lived, are brought from a place once that was lived and experienced so many years ago; that from which brought me from there to here.
I admire you. I have always felt that true strength is not shown by those that withstand, but by those that get up and go at it again!
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Thank you my friend, I appreciate your kind words. I never give up, I have no reason to. Hope today finds you well.
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I’m jamming through preparing a presentation that I wasn’t told I needed to do until last night…so, frustration is on my mind…lol
But I’ll get it! It’ll be epic, of course! 😀
I’m glad you are well too!
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We are our past, present and future Terry! Sunshine Hugs to You.
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Yes, we certainly are Cheryl – thanks for the sunshine hugs, I never get tired of them. 🙂
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You have come so far, beaten off the almost drowning undertow and made yourself a life. You will always be you …. The boy you were played into adolescent you, formed young man you and underpins the man you are now. So feelings of sadness and depression will always creep in, often with no warning. And it would be strange if midst all the anxiety, tiredness, pain and fear of this Cancer fight you are in, you didn’t have those moments. The difference is that you have the strength and resolve, born of the darkest days long ago when you tried to end this life of yours, that you can and you will beat the drag and bubble back to the surface to breathe clean fresh air. Stay with us, special man. You are loved and I loved this piece that so perfectly and painfully described the feeling of that Drag.
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I was caught off guard some when I experienced this several weeks ago – many emotions and memories flooded back to me. I overcame then and I overcome now, this is what I do. I am very fortunate to call you friend and appreciate you and your support. Happy Day Osyth! 🙂
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Thank you. The Bean and I have been making the most of a last days of summer moment by the pool today. My foot benefits from the swimming and she just loves basking, belly-up! I send you a heap of apple cider donuts which are my new guilty pleasure to help keep those blues and dark days at bay 🍩🍩🍩🍩🍩
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Oh yes, please send apple cider donuts – that will certainly help! 🙂
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Honestly, Terry …. They should be illegal they’re so good! And oddly despite bring an apple growing and cider making country I have never seen such a thing in England so I’ve made it my mission to hoover up as many as possible – you may be saving a disaster by helping me out 😂😂😂
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You are awesome Terry. What you may view as negative, I view as honest, human and relatable in our collective experiences. Keep writing, keep being you! Enormous amounts of hugs to you today my friend. 🙂 Alexis
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Thank you Alexis, I am honest in my writings and sometimes fear publishing posts that I feel are negative. But as you indicate, human and relatable – thank you for understanding. 🙂
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I love this post….shows your strength and resolve to always come back and try to fight the unknown your up against….Fiona said it perfectly, she truly is a writer, so I ditto her…LOL XXXXkat
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Thank you kat, I appreciate your kind words, your encouragement and your support. I am fortunate for you and others here – my friends! 🙂
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Beautiful, sad and so much honest emotion,much love x
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Thank you Lynn, you are always here everyday, I truly appreciate you! Happy Wednesday my friend. 🙂
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Happy Wednesday to you friend!
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Hugs! 🙂
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Thank you Linda, I always like the hugs. Hope your day is a happy one. 🙂
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Hardly surprising at the moment, Terry
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Thank you Derrick, appreciate you my friend. Happy day to you. 🙂
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Hi Terry, Never once have I found your posts down and clummy on the contary, you are so full of strength, and when you have these little moments, that will come and go,they are also a sign of great strength, lots of love to you
Brooke
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Thank you Brooke, I feel at times I may turn readers off by writing ‘downer’ posts. You are very kind and understanding and I am grateful for your friendship.
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Winners never write “downer” posts !
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Thank you! 🙂
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Places that we’ve been in our past seem to stay inside us somehow, hidden in a dark corner somewhere. Then unfortunately if and when we are facing very difficult challenges again in our lives we catch glimpses of those dark places again. But remember that’s all it has to be, a glimpse, not a long-time stay like when you were a young man. Because now, you are a different and stronger man who is fighting back and beating Cancer. Try to focus on who you are not who you were. 🙂
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Thank you Amanda, and I agree it is just a glimpse of long ago, though it did catch me off guard at the time – all is better today. Thanks for stopping by today, I appreciate you very much. 🙂
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Oh yes, life has a way of doing these things …to call back the past, to let the past flash through minds and be a reminder of the darkness…funny, it is almost always the darkness that is brought to haunt us. Through all that you have had to encounter in life, you know you are a strong man, that can get through anything, whether it be the dark times, pain, anxiety, whatever. Your strength is being tested and you wont let yourself down. You are human my friend, you are going through so much. Take each day as it comes, and remember you are who you are today because of your strengths from the past. Hope you have a happy day, a lovely walk on the beach. hugs 🙂
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Yes Lynne, certainly my strength is being tested, and I fail many times. But, I pick myself up and continue on. Each day, one day at a time – thanks dear, my day is happy and well. 🙂
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Well,it can’t get more honest than this.I understand this feeling as I seem to be flirting with it a lot lately. Keep moving forward.
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Thank you for understanding and for your comment. I appreciate you taking the time to read today. Hope you have a happy day. 🙂
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We get it, and have so often been there, for very particular reasons that only we understand. What matters when it rears its head once again, is that we remember we overcame it before, and no matter what… will do it again. Not a negative post at all. Just real. Hugs to you, Terry. 💘
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Thank you Van for a great comment and for your understanding. And you are correct, no matter, I will do it again – overcome! Hope your day is going well.
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Your words are an inspiration Terry!
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Thank you Kathryn for your nice comment – always appreciated here! 🙂
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You are truthful and human and we understand and still love you. 😘
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Aww, thank you Jodi, I am glad you understand! 🙂
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Your honesty is part of your strength. Celebrate that and use it to help you through. Kia Kaha. Nga mihi Nui my friend.
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Thank you Su, I will stay strong! I appreciate you! 🙂
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Sending lots of ❤ your way!
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Thank you Tanya, I appreciate you very much! 🙂
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Winston Churchill described depression as a ‘black dog that follows me everywhere’ or words to that effect. Know you are not alone and many prayers and positive energy follow you as well. Love your writing and your courage in putting it out there. Blessings, always.
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Thank you Carol, great words from a great figure in history! I appreciate you allowing me to express myself here and reading – it does me good. Happy day to you.
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And to you as well – no need for thanks, your writing inspires me and gives me courage so I thank you for that!
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So relieved you’ve managed to pull away from ‘the drag’.
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Thank you Peggy, I appreciate you! Hope your week is going well. 🙂
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Terry, you are entitled to your sadness for all the difficulties in your life but don’t allow yourself to be sucked into the drowning pool of depression.
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Thank you Bernadette for your understanding. Trust me, I will never again be in the drowning pool of depression, I am stronger than that. Thanks for your comment, I always appreciate you stopping by. 🙂
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At times of crisis, our mind wanders to memories, often not happy ones. It’s perfectly okay to feel the drag sometimes – that means you are human. 😺 Keep up the positive thoughts and actions. K x
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Thanks Kerry, yes I still keep the positive thoughts and actions. Happy Thursday to you! 🙂
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Thank you, sweetie!
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Your writings help so many of us because we are all gong through the “drag” (all or part of mind, body and spirit). HUGS!
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Thank you for your kind comment, I am honored that in some way I am helping others. Hope you have a great Friday! 🙂
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I know this drag too, Terry, though I don’t really like talking about it… It’s something that stays with you ll your life as you already and very well know. And it’s only natural that it’s ugly head rears up when you’re feeling like you do at the moment. I know others have said it before but I want to join in to that chorus: the knowledge that you’ve overcome it before, helps to stay confident that you can do so again. I know this to be true and am glad for this little piece of wisdom. Keep strong my dear friend! Hugs!!! 🙂 xxxxxxxx
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We people are very much alike in our thinking and behavior. I think ‘the drag’ is familiar to many of us. Thanks Sarah, I remain strong and I appreciate your hugs. 🙂
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🙂 xxx
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This is all understandable Terry. We never know what will take us back to those moments in our lives. Learning to sit with those feelings and finding a way to express them can be a release. Take care!
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Thank you dear, I was not expecting these feelings as they have been buried for a very long time. I let the feelings take their coarse and realized they are a part of me – and that is okay. Thanks for stopping by today. 🙂
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