the drag

I wrote these words a couple of weeks ago when feeling down.   The past couple of weeks at times have been tiring and I am at times beaten down, but I do get up and continue to move forward.

Just know my friends, though at times my posts are negative and sometimes full of despair, my willingness to move forward and overcome is full of strength and vigor.

 

the drag –

 

The drag, the depression; though I have been there before a long, long, long time ago, the memories flood back.

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Feelings, emotions that from a long time ago as a young man, and a young person, experienced; unable to deal with that which was brought to me.

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Today the drag, the depression, though short lived at moments has burst of energy that bring me to tears; bring emotions back; bring feelings that which was me years ago.

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The drag that which brings me down, brings me to tears, brings me to realize feelings, emotions tucked away years ago are there to be relived, to be re-experienced, to be brought back, to be used once again.

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The drag, the depression; daunting at times, short lived, are brought from a place once that was lived and experienced so many years ago; that from which brought me from there to here.

59 thoughts on “the drag

  1. You have come so far, beaten off the almost drowning undertow and made yourself a life. You will always be you …. The boy you were played into adolescent you, formed young man you and underpins the man you are now. So feelings of sadness and depression will always creep in, often with no warning. And it would be strange if midst all the anxiety, tiredness, pain and fear of this Cancer fight you are in, you didn’t have those moments. The difference is that you have the strength and resolve, born of the darkest days long ago when you tried to end this life of yours, that you can and you will beat the drag and bubble back to the surface to breathe clean fresh air. Stay with us, special man. You are loved and I loved this piece that so perfectly and painfully described the feeling of that Drag.

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    • I was caught off guard some when I experienced this several weeks ago – many emotions and memories flooded back to me. I overcame then and I overcome now, this is what I do. I am very fortunate to call you friend and appreciate you and your support. Happy Day Osyth! 🙂

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      • Thank you. The Bean and I have been making the most of a last days of summer moment by the pool today. My foot benefits from the swimming and she just loves basking, belly-up! I send you a heap of apple cider donuts which are my new guilty pleasure to help keep those blues and dark days at bay 🍩🍩🍩🍩🍩

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  2. Places that we’ve been in our past seem to stay inside us somehow, hidden in a dark corner somewhere. Then unfortunately if and when we are facing very difficult challenges again in our lives we catch glimpses of those dark places again. But remember that’s all it has to be, a glimpse, not a long-time stay like when you were a young man. Because now, you are a different and stronger man who is fighting back and beating Cancer. Try to focus on who you are not who you were. 🙂

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  3. Oh yes, life has a way of doing these things …to call back the past, to let the past flash through minds and be a reminder of the darkness…funny, it is almost always the darkness that is brought to haunt us. Through all that you have had to encounter in life, you know you are a strong man, that can get through anything, whether it be the dark times, pain, anxiety, whatever. Your strength is being tested and you wont let yourself down. You are human my friend, you are going through so much. Take each day as it comes, and remember you are who you are today because of your strengths from the past. Hope you have a happy day, a lovely walk on the beach. hugs 🙂

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  4. We get it, and have so often been there, for very particular reasons that only we understand. What matters when it rears its head once again, is that we remember we overcame it before, and no matter what… will do it again. Not a negative post at all. Just real. Hugs to you, Terry. 💘

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  5. Winston Churchill described depression as a ‘black dog that follows me everywhere’ or words to that effect. Know you are not alone and many prayers and positive energy follow you as well. Love your writing and your courage in putting it out there. Blessings, always.

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    • Thank you Bernadette for your understanding. Trust me, I will never again be in the drowning pool of depression, I am stronger than that. Thanks for your comment, I always appreciate you stopping by. 🙂

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  6. I know this drag too, Terry, though I don’t really like talking about it… It’s something that stays with you ll your life as you already and very well know. And it’s only natural that it’s ugly head rears up when you’re feeling like you do at the moment. I know others have said it before but I want to join in to that chorus: the knowledge that you’ve overcome it before, helps to stay confident that you can do so again. I know this to be true and am glad for this little piece of wisdom. Keep strong my dear friend! Hugs!!! 🙂 xxxxxxxx

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    • Thank you dear, I was not expecting these feelings as they have been buried for a very long time. I let the feelings take their coarse and realized they are a part of me – and that is okay. Thanks for stopping by today. 🙂

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