Over the past couple of months, I have had mixed emotions at times when dealing with my current health situation. Immediately prior to starting chemotherapy, I had anxiety and concern and I knew this was okay and to be expected.
As I continued through these past weeks with my emotions very often one of strength and positivity, I have written about my journey so far with my cancer, my treatment and the possible future. I do not want to leave anything out, it will all be here; the good and the bad, the weak and the strong, it will all be here.
This blog is about my life. My life right now is cancer and I am making a big deal out of it. But many people on this world have cancer, so why is mine any more important than theirs? I tell myself at times others that have experienced cancer or know someone that has; well maybe are thinking in their minds that I overdo my emotions, my thinking or reactions.
I tell myself, those others who know cancer may have the thinking “I have been there, done that”, and maybe those other people know more than I and therefore “he (meaning me), overreacts”. My point is I am dealing with my cancer the best I can, that which is me and a part of me – with what I have learned up to this point. It is my life. I read other blog posts with people writing about their struggles and I tell myself, “I have been there, done that.” And I could respond with my personal experience or ‘tips’, ‘suggestions’, or the ‘solution’ to their problem – like I really know the answer to their struggles!
I do feel that it is my responsibility as a reader to read what the writer is putting down in print that which is their thinking, their feelings, their emotions and their life. This is what I am doing here.
From cancer.net –
This year, an estimated 76,960 adults (58,950 men and 18,010 women) will be diagnosed with bladder cancer in the United States. Among men, bladder cancer is the fourth most common cancer. It is estimated that 16,390 deaths (11,820 men and 4,570 women) from this disease will occur this year.
From cancer.org –
About half of all bladder cancers are first found while the cancer is still confined to the inner layer of the bladder wall. (These are called non-invasive or in situ cancers.) About 1 in 3 bladder cancers have invaded into deeper layers but are still only in the bladder. In most of the remaining cases, the cancer has spread to nearby tissues or lymph nodes outside the bladder. Rarely (in about 4% of cases), it has spread to distant parts of the body.
My cancer is Stage 4 bladder cancer and I know the statistics.
This blog is about my life. My life right now is cancer and I am making a big deal out of it. But many people on this world have cancer, so why is mine more important than theirs?