Reveille

Many of you know Gary and I live in an RV park located on the Naval Air Station (NAS) Pensacola, Florida.  As indicated in my post ‘Moment of Silence‘, NAS is home to the Blue Angels Navy Flight Demonstration Squadron.

Per wikipendia.org –

The air station also hosts the Naval Education and Training Command (NETC) and the Naval Aerospace Medical Institute (NAMI), which provides training for all naval flight surgeons, aviation physiologists, and aviation experimental psychologists. With the closure of Naval Air Station Memphis in Millington, Tennessee and the transition of that facility to Naval Support Activity Mid-South, NAS Pensacola also became home to the Naval Air Technical Training Center (NATTC), providing technical training schools for nearly all enlisted aircraft maintenance and enlisted aircrew specialties in the U.S. Navy, U.S. Marine Corps and U.S. Coast Guard.

NAS Pensacola contains Forrest Sherman Field, home of Training Air Wing SIX, providing undergraduate flight training for all prospective Naval Flight Officers for the U.S. Navy and U.S. Marine Corps, and flight officers/navigators for other NATO/Allied/Coalition partners. TRAWING SIX consists of the Training Squadron 4 (VT-4) Warbucks, Training Squadron 10 (VT-10) Wildcats and Training Squadron 86 (VT-86) Sabrehawks, flying the T-45C Goshawk, and T-6A Texan II.

NAS is home to many military and civilian personal who live and work on or near the base.  Every day I witness young enlisted individuals training and I view them coming and going to their classes and/or jobs.  Interactions with these individuals are always pleasant and respectful.

NAS is a large base; spread-out and therefore has many speakers located for communication.  These speakers are also used for reveille.

merriam-webster.com has the following –

 Full Definition of reveille

:  a signal to get up mornings

:  a bugle call at about sunrise signaling the first military formation of the day; also:  the formation so signaled

In the mornings after reveille, the National Anthem is played.  In the United States, we play the National Anthem before sporting events and sometimes other types of activities where large amounts of people are gathered.  I would acknowledge the song and maybe sing along with it or, maybe not.  Since living at NAS, that has changed; I feel differently when I hear this song now.  The song has more meaning for me.  Why?

No matter where on the base one is – when the National Anthem is played in the morning or evening, everyone stops what they are doing and gives their attention.  Military personal both active and retired salute and civilians with their hand on their heart.  My heart pounds as I am stopped in my tracks and begin singing the National Anthem – what an honor.

The National Anthem has new meaning for me – as does reveille.

New Habit

I decided since it is the last month of the year, I would wrap up some topics that I started to write about and never did finish.  This post I started earlier this year, and then it sat quietly waiting for me to complete it.

Because my OCD tells me that if I start something I must complete it; this also applies to posts I write – I will be bothered if I do not complete them – so, here I am finishing this post and concluding this topic.

I believe next year will bring many different topics to write about and I have a feeling this one will not be one of them and will be left in the past.

So here we go –

This past year was significant for me – I was diagnosed with Stage 4 Bladder Cancer.

Here are some excerpts from previous posts I wrote since the beginning of this blog back in May, 2015 referring to smoking –

Post: My Life My Way

I am currently 55, so I am expected to die in 21 years.  And then take into account I need to minus an additional 10 years because I am a smoker, this takes me down to 11 years before I die.  Interesting to think about; I have 11 years before I die.  I am unsure why I am writing about this particular subject except to say, I really am not afraid to die and really have no doubts for those bad behaviors that could cause my death – I am living my life my way.

Post: Smoking Past – Smoking Present

On social media, I recently read about a person’s encounter with people who smoke.  This person observed a smoker who had no teeth, was coughing and had a ‘smoker’s voice’.  This person wrote that is was clear to them that this was cancer waiting to happen.

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Post: Early Morning Rambling Thoughts

So today is day #5 without smoking and day #4 knowing I have bladder cancer.

Post: Decisions, Choices, cause and effect

As they have made decisions and lived with the outcomes, the results and consequences, so have I. I made decisions in my life to smoke and then to stop and start again and stop only to start again.  The smoking picked me with regards to giving me bladder cancer.  Yes, I did think about the consequences of my actions, but made the decision anyway.

Post: A Breakup Letter

I love you –

But your toxic love created harm in me.

I will miss you, but will move on, because you know –

I love me –

Terry

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Today, I end with the following thoughts –

January 27, 2016, the day I quit smoking.  That is the day the new habit began.

What once brought me comfort and pleasure is no longer in my life.  Smoking most likely is a factor in my bladder cancer and it may be the death of me.  I deal with and accept the consequences of my actions.

Sailing

In my post ‘Welcome Aboard!‘, I wrote the following words –

Gary and I are setting sail on our cruise today.

I plan to take many pictures, some videos and hopefully will have a brain full of ideas for future posts.

In today’s post, I write the following words –

As promised, I took many pictures; here are a few of them.

Words from the song ‘Sailing’ by Christopher Cross.

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Well, it’s not far down to paradise, at least it’s not for me

And if the wind is right you can sail away and find tranquility

Oh, the canvas can do miracles, just you wait and see

Believe me

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It’s not far to never-never land, no reason to pretend

And if the wind is right you can find the joy of innocence again

Oh, the canvas can do miracles, just you wait and see

Believe me

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Sailing takes me away to where I’ve always heard it could be

Just a dream and the wind to carry me

And soon I will be free

Fantasy, it gets the best of me

When I’m sailing

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All caught up in the reverie, every word is a symphony

Won’t you believe me?

Sailing takes me away to where I’ve always heard it could be

Just a dream and the wind to carry me

And soon I will be free

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Well it’s not far back to sanity, at least it’s not for me

And if the wind is right you can sail away and find serenity

Oh, the canvas can do miracles, just you wait and see

Believe me

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Sailing takes me away to where I’ve always heard it could be

Just a dream and the wind to carry me

And soon I will be free

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December – Father Christmas by The Kinks

December – a popular holiday song this time of year – Father Christmas by The Kinks

This song is about a kid whose Christmas experience is a bit unusual. He never believed in Father Christmas, but finds himself performing as the character, and gets mugged by kids who tell him they want his money, not toys.

Interesting facts about Father Christmas & The Kinks

“Father Christmas” is the name used in The UK and Australia for Santa Claus.

In England, Father Christmas is the personification of Christmas, in the same way as Santa Claus is in the United States. Although the characters are now synonymous, historically Father Christmas and Santa Claus have separate entities, stemming from unrelated traditions.

The Kinks were formed by the Davies brothers, who generally do not get along.

Ray Davies frequently stole shows by performing the song live wearing a Santa costume.

This song is played in the background at the end of the movie Step Brothers as the camera is slowly zooming in on the family during The Holidays.

This information was provided by Songfacts.com

Back Tomorrow

In my post ‘Spending time away‘, I wrote the following –

While I am on one of the biggest ships, sailing the Atlantic Ocean visiting several Caribbean islands; my plan involves some days publishing a brand-new post and other days re-publishing an older post.  I wrote posts early in my blog that received little exposer and I consider them among others as interesting posts. I know I can reblog these posts, but decided instead to create a new post for each and give a different name to them.

I appreciate everyone taking the time to stop by, read and leave many wonderful comments.  My time away sailing and enjoying other activities will result in time offline and will prevent me from responding to the many wonderful comments I receive.  Therefore, I will be disabling the comments on many of my upcoming posts while spending time away.  There will be times I will have some time online and you will see me a little here and there on WP.  But, most of my time will be offline having fun, relaxing and enjoying the sun.

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In today’s post, I write the following –

The past 7 days, Gary and I have been sailing on a large ship in the Eastern Caribbean and will be back docked into a Florida port tomorrow.

Upon my return, I plan to share our trip though words, pictures and video.  I hope you enjoyed my posts from this past week; some new, some old and I appreciate you allowing me to disable the comments on a few.  You are welcome to leave a comment on this post related to a post from this past week.  I hope to have the time to start responding to comments tomorrow and to read your posts.  But if time does not allow, I will eventually catch-up – I promise.

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I am writing this post in advance because I am out sailing the seas, but I know from my past experiences with taking a cruise that Gary and I had a great time.  Starting next week, I am back to the Christmas season; after all it is a little over a week away.

But next week also is the start of what is to occur with my health and body; my reality.  My reality starts again next week with an appointment with my Urologist Dr. P. to discuss details of my upcoming surgery.  The week after Christmas will be an appointment with the hospital for pre-op procedures and the first week of the new year begins with a major surgery.

There still is a couple of weeks before that first week of the year – for now, today – I am still cruising.

I will be back tomorrow.

a job; and I was naked!

In my post ‘Spending time away‘, I wrote the following –

While I am on one of the biggest ships, sailing the Atlantic Ocean visiting several Caribbean islands; my plan involves some days publishing a brand-new post and other days re-publishing an older post.  I wrote posts early in my blog that received little exposer and I consider them among others as interesting posts. I know I can reblog these posts, but decided instead to create a new post for each and give a different name to them.

I appreciate everyone taking the time to stop by, read and leave many wonderful comments.  My time away sailing and enjoying other activities will result in time offline and will prevent me from responding to the many wonderful comments I receive.  Therefore, I will be disabling the comments on many of my upcoming posts while spending time away.  There will be times I will have some time online and you will see me a little here and there on WP.  But, most of my time will be offline having fun, relaxing and enjoying the sun.

In today’s post, I write the following –

These words were originally published in June, 2015 –

Recently I have been having some interesting dreams while sleeping.  A couple of nights ago I had a dream that included my boss at my last job I had prior to retiring.  She is a pretty lady, about 20 years younger than me and I liked her and respected her very much.  She was in my thoughts earlier in the day so I assume that is why she was in my dream – no other reason I can think of.  Anyway I dreamed I was going back to work and I was thinking I had 2 job offers, one from her and one from someone else.  I went to see her first to find out if I was offered a job; and I was naked!

I was in a room by myself naked, standing with no clothes on, nothing!  She walked in and gave me a look, not a surprised look, just a look.  I remember being a little embarrassed, but was somewhat ok with the situation.  Previously having worked for her and others in a small company for almost 10 years, we all became close friends – almost like family.  By no means did I have an attraction for her and there was certainly no attraction from her for me – so not sure why I was naked in front of her in my dream.  Back to the dream; there I am standing in front of her naked and I do not remember anything being said, but I some point it was obvious to me there was a company policy that when someone was offered a job, the whole company was present to offer it.  One by one, other people started to walk into the room with me standing there naked.  No one said a word and neither did I.  The others when walking into the room gave me a look, not a surprised look, just a look.  I remember continuing to be a little embarrassed, but was still ok with the situation.

I decided to research dreaming about being naked and this is what I found on the dreammoods.com website:

This website indicates an in depth analyses for common naked dreams include the following: Nudity indicates vulnerability, Nudity indicates fear of exposure, Nudity indicates insecurity, Nudity indicates feeling unprepared, Nudity indicates arrogance, Nudity indicates freedom of expression, Nudity indicates attention.

The conclusion of the naked dreams analysis –

Often times, when you realize that you are naked in your dream, no one else seems to notice. Everyone else in the dream is going about their business without giving a second look at your nakedness. It just reiterates that your concerns or anxieties are your own projections; no one will notice except you. You may be magnifying the situation and making an issue out of nothing.

So here I am writing my blog posts and telling my life stories, the good, the bad and the ugly parts of me and my life, this process I believe is me taking my clothes off and standing naked in front of you.

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Damn You Pictures

In my post ‘Spending time away‘, I wrote the following –

While I am on one of the biggest ships, sailing the Atlantic Ocean visiting several Caribbean islands; my plan involves some days publishing a brand-new post and other days re-publishing an older post.  I wrote posts early in my blog that received little exposer and I consider them among others as interesting posts. I know I can reblog these posts, but decided instead to create a new post for each and give a different name to them.

I appreciate everyone taking the time to stop by, read and leave many wonderful comments.  My time away sailing and enjoying other activities will result in time offline and will prevent me from responding to the many wonderful comments I receive.  Therefore, I will be disabling the comments on many of my upcoming posts while spending time away.  There will be times I will have some time online and you will see me a little here and there on WP.  But, most of my time will be offline having fun, relaxing and enjoying the sun.

In today’s post, I write the following –

These words were originally published in June, 2015 –

The last several days I have not physically felt well resulting in my body and mind becoming fatigued.  Yesterday morning my partner left the home to run some errands and I sat in a recliner in our upstairs main room to relax some.  At this point, I have had minimal sleep in the past couple of nights and very little to eat in the last couple of days.  My body is exhausted and my mind is tired, lethargic along with feeling a little dizziness.

So while sitting in my recliner I stare at the pictures hanging on the opposite wall across from me.  These pictures display my partner and me not so many years ago at a younger and more youthful age; also are pictures of my sons and then there is the picture of my grandson and me.  As I continue to look at the pictures I think to myself about the relationship I would like to have with my sons.  I reflect upon the feelings I have concerning my failure as a father and most likely the failure as a grandfather.  And as the thoughts swirl through my mind concerning my partner dealing with my moods and my behaviors and that he still loves me and accepts me; I then start crying profusely.  I start crying profusely not because of these thoughts; not because of the people in my life and not because of the labels of failure I place on myself, but because the pictures on the wall are not hanging straight.  They are not hanging straight on the wall and this troubles me, damn it!

The anxiety and frustration of these pictures not hanging straight on the wall take me back to another time and another place.  I am taken back to my 20s with the same thoughts and reactions; my wife and I are having issues related to me needing to straighten the pictures.  As soon as I noticed a picture on the wall that was not hanging straight I would immediately have to correct it, it would drive me crazy if I did not.  And still today I sit here crying because the pictures on the wall are not hanging straight.  Forget my feelings of those important people in the pictures; what matters the most at this moment is the damn pictures are not hanging straight.

The end result is different today than in my 20s; even though I still struggle with the pictures on the walls not hanging straight, this time I did not attempt to straighten them, instead I wrote about it and left them as is!

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I was different

In my post ‘Spending time away‘, I wrote the following –

While I am on one of the biggest ships, sailing the Atlantic Ocean visiting several Caribbean islands; my plan involves some days publishing a brand-new post and other days re-publishing an older post.  I wrote posts early in my blog that received little exposer and I consider them among others as interesting posts. I know I can reblog these posts, but decided instead to create a new post for each and give a different name to them.

I appreciate everyone taking the time to stop by, read and leave many wonderful comments.  My time away sailing and enjoying other activities will result in time offline and will prevent me from responding to the many wonderful comments I receive.  Therefore, I will be disabling the comments on many of my upcoming posts while spending time away.  There will be times I will have some time online and you will see me a little here and there on WP.  But, most of my time will be offline having fun, relaxing and enjoying the sun.

In today’s post, I write the following –

These words were originally published in June, 2015 –

From a young child and growing into a young adult, I was insecure with a very low self-esteem that eventually led me to tragic events and an eventual long road to a better life.  I think it is difficult for people to understand how a young child can be insecure about himself.  My growing up years should be full of good times with friends and family; playing sports, enjoying school and just having fun.  But there I am around 7 years old and already having feelings of insecurity and low self-esteem.  Events in my short life are very visible to me and are affecting my self-image.

I have a twin sister and upon ending the 2nd grade, she went on to 3rd grade and I went back to 2nd grade.  For a child this young, I was devastated as I felt stupid and inferior to my twin sister.  I remember about the same time going to a special hospital to have tests run.  I think my parents wanted to find out if I had a learning disability.  I remember having a hearing test, a physical and some aptitude tests.  The one memory that stands out the most is that all around me were other children, many of them severely retarded.  Me as a young child seeing other children my age at the same hospital that are severely retarded, how am I supposed to feel?  I realized then at that very young and tender age I was different and something was wrong with me.

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19: with first words

Today is the 19th month of my blog!  My anniversary post is something different than the usual posts I write.

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I am on a cruise ship today somewhere in the Eastern Caribbean.

I decided to take my age 56 and subtract 19 (the anniversary month of my blog) and that equals 37.  I then took my age 56 and added 19 (the anniversary month of my blog) and that equals 75.

I then took 37 and added 75 and that equals 112.  I then took 112 and subtracted 19 (the anniversary month of my blog) and that equals 93.

I then went back to my 93rd post and picked the following corresponding numbered words –

19 (the anniversary month of my blog) – time

37 (my age subtracting the anniversary month of my blog) – in

56 (my age) – I

75 (my age adding the anniversary month of my blog) – a

93 (37 adding 75 subtracting 19) – specific

112 (37 adding 75) – before

Create a poem using the above words as the first word of each line –

Time has come.

In the weeks, ahead.

I will reveal.

A future once unforeseen.

Specific with previous uncertainties.

Before, but now with clarity.

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Today is the 19th month of my blog!  My anniversary post is something different than the usual posts I write.

Quote Challenge – Vacation

In my post ‘Spending time away‘, I wrote the following –

I appreciate everyone taking the time to stop by, read and leave many wonderful comments.  My time away sailing and enjoying other activities will result in time offline and will prevent me from responding to the many wonderful comments I receive.  Therefore, I will be disabling the comments on many of my upcoming posts while spending time away.  There will be times I will have some time online and you will see me a little here and there on WP.  But, most of my time will be offline having fun, relaxing and enjoying the sun.

In today’s post, I write the following –

Yes, 2 months ago I was nominated for the 3 Day Quote Challenge by the following 3 bloggers –

Roxie over at U.T.I.P. (UNITE TOGETHER IN PEACE)

An excerpt from Roxie’s About Page –

Writing has always been a passion of mine.   This was blog was started with the intent to gain a positive outlook on life.  I always had a positive outlook but after suffering a concussion, that outlook changed.   Writing about my long rehabilitation I found to be difficult and emotional, at the present time.

Charles over at CHARLES FRENCH WORDS READING AND WRITING

Charles home page displays –

Charles French Words Reading And Writing

An exploration of writing and reading

Josh over at jdfisher8404

Josh’s first post displays –

Hello to anyone and everyone that is reading this. This my first blog and first post so I thought that I would kick it off with some of my favorite quotes.

-JD

“The secret of getting ahead is getting started.”

-Mark Twain

“The destiny of mankind is not decided by material computation. When great causes are on the move in the world … we learn that we are spirits, not animals, and that something is going on in space and time, and beyond space and time, which, whether we like it or not, spells duty.”

-Winston Churchill

“Tell me and I forget. Teach me and I remember. Involve me and I learn.”

-Benjamin Franklin

I hope it is okay with everyone that I post 3 quotes for this post for all 3 nominators instead a separate post for each one.

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The Rules for the Challenge:

Three quotations for three days.

Three nominees each day (no repetition).

Thank the person who nominated you.

Inform the nominees.

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For me, when I am nominated for the quote challenge I usually select a topic or theme – just to be different.

My topic this time around must be about ‘Vacation’; after all that is where I am today and the next 8 days!

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I decided I would not nominate anyone because I am away – so anyone that is interested – please accept my nomination.

I am on vacation today on a cruise somewhere in the Eastern Caribbean.  Due to my limited online presence, comments are disabled.

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Thank you again to these wonderful bloggers for nominating me for the 3 Day Quote Challenge, please visit these wonderful blogs –

Roxie over at U.T.I.P. (UNITE TOGETHER IN PEACE)

Charles over at CHARLES FRENCH WORDS READING AND WRITING

Josh over at jdfisher8404