Almost one year ago today my post ‘it’s not a dream‘, began with these words –

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I woke this morning my usual time between 4-5 AM with the same thoughts on my mind as I had when I laid my head down on the pillow the night before. As I am drinking my coffee I think about these thoughts and I think to myself ‘Was that a dream?’ Then it occurs to me, ‘No it’s not a dream.’ The events of the day before really did occur.
Almost one year later in this post, I begin with the following words –
Many of you know what took place last year and what has taken place so far this very young year.
There are times I write my thoughts down or voice record them for future use in a post. Sometimes these thoughts are then forgotten for a while until a later time when I want to write a post about them. Some of these thoughts were documented when I was in a certain mood or having specific feelings about my life at a particular time.
The following is some of that documentation; it was sometime last year, before Stage 4, before chemotherapy, before surgery and before recovery –

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I do not feel inspirational, I do not feel strong, I do not feel anything. You my friends write comments with compliments. I wake in the mornings to feel pain and I cry. Not because of the cancer, not because I am dealing with stuff of the day. I feel nobody understands, I know it is just me – I am not receiving the support and interest that I want. It upsets me because I really do not feel anyone is really interested in me. I know people are, and my family is, but I really do not feel they are – I feel like I am going through this alone. Really, nobody is truly interested. I get on the phone and when I do receive a phone call, I just say ‘It is all good, everything will be fine.’ ‘I have some aches and pains.’ But truly I do not want them to know what I really am feeling. I do not sugarcoat it but do not want to give them all the information because I do not want to bring them down. I do not feel inspirational, I am just dealing with anger, dealing with pain, dealing with tiredness. I do not feel grateful or thankful or happy – I have no motivation. I do not feel anything positive right now, everything right now is an effort – nothing is great – I just exist.
Today, in this post, I want to conclude with the following –

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But then it changed. Why? Because the body became sicker and the illness more serious?
What changed is I received a great deal of support and encouragement from you.
I am currently recovering from my surgery and I continue to receive support and encouragement from you – just what the doctor ordered.
(Note: my responses to your comments will be delayed this week. Please understand I continue to be in recovery mode and am moving slow.)
No need to respond we, your fellow bloggers, just want you to know we are with you! XXXOOO
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Thank you. 🙂
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Wow! This post is powerful! I wish you nothing but well wishes during your recovery! Sometimes life has an interesting way of handing you the support from total strangers when you don’t get it from other places. God bless you on this journey! Xx, S.
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Thank you for your support during my time of recovery. 🙂
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You’re so welcome! Thank you for inspiring me by sharing your road to recovery with us! 🙂
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Hi Again! I decided to nominate you for the Blog-Aholics Award! I hope you’ll accept! See my post here: https://orchidsandsweettea.com/2017/01/29/blog-aholic-award-given-twice/
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Thank you for the award. I am unsure if I can accept due to many happenings in my life at this time. I appreciate the nomination. 🙂
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You’re so welcome! No worries! I understand! I’m just happy that you’ve accepted! 🙂
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There are really no words… I just want to let you know I am here.
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Thank you Sadie. 🙂
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You absolutely do NOT need to make any response. All that I, and all your other friends on here want, is for you to put what energy you have into healing. We are all right here, for you, sending you strength, courage and warmth. Hugs, many many hugs and my healing thoughts across the water, gift wrapped and addressed exclusively to you 🎁 🌈 ☀️ 🌺 ⭐️
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Thank you Osyth! 🙂
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I’m so glad that people stepped up for you and showed you the support that you needed to see and hear. As you’ve just adhered to, no matter what many claim there’s only so much that we can draw from within ourselves. All of us need others; it’s called being human!
Thank you for appreciating all of your readers and followers who now feel as if they are real friends as much as you do. This kind of post blog is what creates true caring and loyalty, above and beyond a mere blogging relationship.
You get back what you put out. Be well. 🙂
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Thank you Amanda. 🙂
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You are sooo loved!! ❤💙💜💛😘
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Thank you Jodi! 🙂
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💋 – no response needed #1.
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🙂
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One day at a time my friend. One day at a time🙇
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Thank you! 🙂
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Wishing you the very best of health and a speedy recovery.Take care of yourself.Loads of love and warm wishes to you.
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Thank you very much. 🙂
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Just keep moving towards recovery, one little step at a time. No need to respond – we are with you, always!
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Thank you! 🙂
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My pleasure – praying for you!
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Let me echo everyone else: we just want you to get well. No need to respond – focus on healing!
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Thank you Sarah! 🙂
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Love and hugs my friend. Heal and get better soon. No matter how long it takes, we will all be here for you. 🙂 x
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Thank you Lynne. 🙂
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Keep healing! Thats your only requirement. 💕🤗
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Thank you Alexis! 🙂
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No response required. Just keep recovering. Hope the virtual spoons are helping. I keep sending them.:)
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Thanks Peggy, look forward to a virtual spoon post in the future. 🙂
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Hugs to you, darlin. Take the time you need to be well and we understand.
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Thank you! 🙂
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Hi sweetie! Thinking of you always! Take care dear Terry xxxx
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Thank you Lynn. 🙂
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Yes, just what the doctor ordered! ❤️
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Thank you Jennie. 🙂
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Take your time Terry, and you do not need to respond to my comments! I know you are reading them and feel the love and that’s all that counts. xoxoxo
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Thank you dear. 🙂
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Take care Terry! It is just great to hear from you!
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Thank you Blue. 🙂
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I like your article , very inspiring and thank you for your post
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You are welcome, thank for you stopping by to read and comment. 🙂
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I understand and you do not need to respond. “I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” – Maya Angelou
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Thank you! 🙂
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Welcome back. No matter how long I’m always happy to read your posts.
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Thank you Tikeetha! 🙂
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