Only 3 weeks ago, I had a 10 ½ hour surgery and was in the hospital for 11 days. During those hospital days, I had very little physical strength and spent most of my time doing nothing except resting and recovering. Once home in those first few days I felt I needed to document some thoughts that were swirling through my head; they were important to me. Those first few days back home I spent little time on the computer and so I voice recorded my thoughts.
The following are words I spoke and recorded one of those first few days back home –
So this is a post about strength – strength that I did not know that I had. I made my 11 day hospital stay; I made it through being positive, being optimistic. For those first two nights after a very long surgery, for the first night I was awake for a little while, and thinking to myself; I don’t know how I am going to get through this, but then I fell back into a deep sleep. And the next night, same room and still in the same position because I have not moved I then thought to myself again; I don’t know how I am going to get through this. But I kept telling myself, I will, I have the strength within me, I have the perseverance and the positiveness that I am going to get through this and I am going to do well during my recovery. And during the whole recovery for those nights and more after I did that – I did that. Certainly I had my aches and pains I had to deal with; and pain medications were there and other medications were there to help me along the way and I did what was asked of me and I found the strength in me that I never, ever thought that I had. Seriously I never thought I had that strength in me. But it was there, it was waiting to be used during a time when I needed it the most. So, my post is about strength; I think that it is probably in all of us, it is in all of us somewhere. And when we need it the most, I think we all can reach deep down and grab it and use it and get through any difficult situations we may be going through.