It was January 16th when my 10 ½ hour surgery took place.
I wrote about strength I found within myself in my post ‘strength’.
In that post, I voice recorded thoughts the immediate days’ home after the hospital stay.
Here is another voice recorded thoughts now documented for you and about you –
Write a post about that first night after surgery I was still feeling lots of the anesthesia and under lots of pain medication. And I remember feeling like I was in your comments. I was in your comments; almost like I am walking around in your comments, the words you have left me. Not just the recent comments, but the past weeks and months comments; the encouraging words and the supportive words; the words of love and the words of support and the words of encouragement. It was as almost as I was walking through these comments from all of you, I was touching them and it was helping me with my strength; it was helping me say you are going to get through this because there are so many other people there – there are so many other people out there who are encouraging you and supporting you and praying for you and thinking about you. And who are touching you in a way that you are going to succeed and you are going to be strong. And that is what I was doing; I was walking through your comments; almost like a stage and all your comments are sitting there on this stage in big letters. And I am walking by and I am actually touching them, touching your actual words and feeling them and experiencing them. That is the only way I can explain it, that is the only way I can explain this dream or hallucination or whatever it is I was experiencing at the time. But I really truly felt that, that my friends helped me so much – I really, really do believe that. I know it took a lot for me to deal with my surgery and the feelings afterwards, but I really truly feel that experience, that hallucination or dream or whatever was a big part that started helping me on a good start, on a good note to start my recovery.
Thank you for always supporting me and encouraging me through your words and comments.