Little over 4 weeks now since surgery, since the new me was created or updated from the old me.
Many of you know, I now have an urostomy bag on the outside of my body because I now no longer have a bladder.
These past weeks have me struggling at times, less with the physical part, though that can be challenging at times, but more with the mental part. The changes to my body at times brings me to tears; what has taken place to me and how am I supposed to accept this?
As my body continues to recover and become stronger, I know too will my mind, my thinking and my attitude.
A couple of weeks ago in my post ‘my struggle with cancer‘, I updated you with the most recent information concerning my health and my cancer. That post received many comments from you with your always welcomed support and encouragement. Those comments, your comments have great meaning to me and bring me strength in more ways than you can imagine.
My friend Kat over at Time No Matter left me one of those strengthening comments –
IN my belief of healing and beating all odds…is first the positive attitude, and man do you have that one nailed down….your outlook on life up close and personal is so important to your healing….in my opinion of course, and its always right !!! lol second is your support group…you couldn’t be more supported if you were a pair of veins in good Ted hose…LOL you have a loving, caring, devoted husband, your personal family, Roxy, and then all of us…there isn’t a day that goes by your not in my thoughts !!!! We may have never met, but my friend I hold you near and dear !!! And then there’s your medical team…and I think you have a wonderful group of professionals that know their stuff….I know you feel the same as you have literally put your life in their hands and they are caring, loving, knowledgeable group of people…finally there is the sprit, social ideologies, we all believe in our own ways, no ones God, Goddess, Buddha, moon worshiper – whomever/whatever is better than someone else’s, but to me its important to be spiritual…and I know you are……you have cancer on the run….you are over a huge hurdle in your fight…..you’ve got this my friend….one day at a time…one moment at a time….danced in the sliver of a moon for you last night….sending you much warmth, love and moon beams……xxxxkat
I responded with the following –
You bring tears to my eyes, because I know what you write is the truth. I have this past week have had my challenges mentally as I struggle to accept the new me and still the unknown that lies ahead. I find strength in your words and your friendship. kat, you are special – I appreciate you very much, thanks dear.
So, as you see from her comment and many others I receive, I have great support from you that brings great strength to me. The physical strength is returning and with your help I know my mental strength will continue to increase as well.