Look Forward

Friday a week ago, I met with my Oncologist Dr. D. to discuss the option for a possible trial medication for Stage 4 Bladder Cancer and possible Cancer Centers that could administer the trial.  At this time, research on my part is taking place with regards to my future cancer care.  Because I am currently recovering from my recent surgery, no future possible treatments will take place until after the next round of imaging tests; these will take place next month.

This past week I had a routine appointment with my Urologist Dr. P. to discuss my surgery recovery.  Dr. P. is pleased with my recovery and we will have another follow-up appointment early April.

I also met with another Oncologist Dr. A. for a second opinion at a Cancer Center here in Pensacola.  Dr. A. will meet with peers on his facilities tumor board to discuss possible options.  He did indicate that one possible option is radiation.  At this time, no decision will be made until after imaging tests are conducted next month.


This past Tuesday in my post ‘Seeking a Home Base’, I mentioned Gary and I are searching for a location to plant roots and use as our home base.  A trip is planned in a couple of weeks and we will be visiting different locations that best meet our needs.  The trip will also include visiting a major Cancer Center located in Tampa, Florida.  A referral is submitted and a consultation appointment is in place.

Currently there is much planning taking place for a future move to a more permanent location and finding a new medical facility for my healthcare.  As indicated a couple of days ago in my post ‘Exactly 1 Month‘, I am feeling good with my recovery.  I will admit though, I do not feel excellent as I am having difficulties with some pain and other minor issues.  I am not sure if they are related to the surgery or my cancer diagnoses and if over time I will overcome these minor issues.

I want to feel great every single day, and honestly, I do not.  7 weeks ago I had a very major surgery and I have to remind myself the recovery will take 2-3 months.  I will be starting my 3rd month of recovery very soon and when it ends; my hope is the minor issues come to an end as well.

I have not felt great in a very long time and I miss those days when I felt healthy, active and invincible.  I was truly happy those days and I feel they are gone for good.  Am I being a little pessimistic and down?  Yes, I am.

What do I have to look forward to in the coming weeks and months?

More recovery, a possible new location and new doctors with new ideas.

I hope also, I can look forward to feeling healthier, active, and invincible once again.


53 thoughts on “Look Forward

  1. Terry, I know you have your days and moments where you are down, which is 100% understandable. You are still recovering, and I am sure in time, things will start looking better. It must be very stressful as well now with all the changes that need to take place, different medical care, doctors, and so forth, but I truly hope and pray all will be fine, things will all be sorted and you will be happy and feeling good again. 🙂

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    • Thank you Lynne, I know you are right, I have been weak both physically and mentally this past week and it all caught up with me. I know I have much better things to look forward to and soon my hope the feeling good again will be the norm. Thanks dear friend, I appreciate your supportive words.

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  2. Oh, I hope too that you’ll be feeling strong, vital, and invincible soon! Unfortunately it may take longer than you want. When doctors predict a recovery time they are looking at it from a biological medical perspective that excludes the physiological and psychological harm that also needs to heal from the stress of illness and surgery. So try to stay patient my friend, the day will come. 🙂

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  3. Terry, I have yet to meet a person who has gone through major surgery and actually felt okay within the time frame the doctor said. Really. My 6 weeks translated into 3 months, and I was healthy and active. I don’t know why doctors give unreasonable time frames. Because if you don’t feel great by when they say, it is disheartening and depressing. Just tell me it will be 3 months, not 6 weeks! Know what I mean? So, you are merely going through what most patients do. Much love and happiness to you!

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  4. It must be so frustrating not to know the source of the other pains and issues! But as you know recovery takes so.much time and all that you can do to speed it up you’re already been doing. But you will feel better and healthier again!!! I know you will!!! It just takes more time than anticipated…

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    • Yes, you are correct Sarah and you and others are telling me the same thing. I need to give it more time and know that eventually my recovery will be completed and all will be good again. Thanks as always for your supportive comments. 🙂

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      • It´s an easy thing to say, but not easy to do, right? No matter how fast one recovers, it actually is never fast enough… it seems time acts more like it´s been made of syrup when one´s ill… Will keep sending you speedy recovery wishes and hugs! 🙂

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  5. When you post your videos, you seem to be doing great – especially for someone so closely removed from a major, major surgery! Many, if not most, of us out here in the blogging world wouldn’t be doing so well if someone came and took one of our major organs!

    Also, I think I said yesterday that it’s understandable you’ll have down days. But you have so much to look forward to right now, like finding a more permanent home base. Plus, it sounds like you are going to have options when it comes to your next steps with regard to your health, and that is a good thing, too – I’m sure a lot of people get to this point in their treatment and they don’t have your options, for a whole host of reasons.

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    • Yes, I do have much to look forward to and my videos do come across as doing well. But behind the scenes when sitting around a lot because I am unable to do as much activity as I would like – I get a little down. I know this will pass and soon I will feel much better and it helps with the amazing support I have here. Thanks Sarah, you help me a lot – I appreciate you. 🙂

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  6. Recovery time is NEVER what the doctor’s say, I certainly can attest to that! You have a lot to look forward to, I think looking for a new place to live is kind of exciting. Plus who knows what the second opinion will come up with? All kinds of possibilities going on here. Sending you hugs and love to get through your down days, Terry. xoxo

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  7. I’m happy to see that you’re recovery is going well, despite the minor setbacks. Jus take it day by day and know that you will fully feel great again soon! Your body will guide you on when you’ve fully recovered. TIME is all you need. Get well soon! 🙂

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  8. Take this time Terry to rest and look forward to better days ahead, and there will be those days as you continue on with your journey. 🙂 Your still young and and strong and positive. Your pain will become less and less each passing day. Enjoy the beautiful weather and have a blessed Sunday 🙂

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      • Yes, a quite one…starting to get warm here in California and I feel like taking it easy today. Soon the air will need to be running. I feel like it is going to be a very hot summer! I would love a sea breeze, but I can always imagine one! 🙂 Had my shot this morning, have one tomorrow and today in the mail I got an authorization for Palonosetron HCl….looked that up and it is: Aloxi (palonosetron hydrochloride) is an antiemetic and anti-nausea agent used to prevent nausea and vomiting that may be caused by surgery or by medicine to treat cancer (chemotherapy or radiation). So, I feel the next round of chemotherapy is going to be more intense than the first two sessions and that rather took me by surprise…but I will hang in there with it…all I can do. My wish for you is that you and Gary have a great weekend. (I just wrote another comment on one of your posts) I love you both, and virtual hugs to both of you. 🙂 🙂

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        • Hang in there Sandra. When I went through chemo, I took the anti-nausea drugs and they worked wonders – I never had any issues. I know not all chemo drugs are the same – my hope is that you go through this and feel good without any side-effects. I keep you in my thoughts – and Gary and I thank you for the virtual hugs my friend. Happy Sunday! 🙂

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  9. Go with it, flow with it – it’s all you can do. There will be days when you feel brighter and many when you feel anything but bright. Your body, your mind, your emotions have been through a HUGE ordeal and it will take every moment of that 3 months for you to begin to feel invincible again. For now keep being truthful with yourself and your friends … for you it is important to get the toxicity into the open and for us it is important to know how you really feel so that we can do our darnedest to support you. I send you warm hugs and sunshine from a balmy France (and your balmy friend) 😊

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    • Well, I feel better already, from your comment and others. It certainly helps having a great support system here from wonderful friends across the globe. I will get through the present and future, no matter what occurs. Thank you Osyth for always being here and caring. Mother nature is wanting to keep winter around for another week – she is not giving up – so cool and rainy here for a while longer. But Spring is coming soon! 🙂

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      • I’m braced for the next assault of winter … we had snow and icy winds the first half of last week then very tedious rain and all of a sudden Friday we got this glorious weekend … who knows what’s next – I’m just taking it as it comes. I will always be here. I promised you that a long time ago and I don’t give up on promises, particularly when they are made to a man I truly value in my life

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  10. Hang in there. But, when you feel blue, it is ok, I think. To me, it is ok to feel sad or upset or a little hopeless and helpless . . . it happens. But the key is to not stay feeling that way. Scrolling through the comments, it looks as if you have a lot of support. 🙂

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    • Yes Terre, I am very fortunate to have a great deal of support here. I am feeling much better today, a better attitude starting a new day. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment. Have a great day. 🙂

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