Pain, Moods & Me

Last month, my friend and fellow blogger Curry N Code from blog site Life Less Ordinary, published a post that resonated with me.

That post ‘Be Not Provoked‘, was about not being provoked to anger.  Please, if you have the time – click the above link to read this beneficial post.

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That post spoke to me and is an excellent reminder for me of what I am not doing.  A reminder of what I should be doing.  You know what is going on in my life right now, I am dealing with cancer and currently going through another round of chemotherapy.  This dealing with cancer started 20 months ago and has been on going non-stop.

There is the body pain, many different body pains I have experienced over these 20 months and I allow that body pain to affect my mood and to affect me.

I am opposite of what my friend Curry N Code writes in the post I mentioned.  I am ashamed to admit it – I call myself weak – I allow my body pain to dictate my mind.

I have written about this before.  I allow my body pain to dictate my moods, my mind, me.  It seems to me, I use my body pain as an excuse to be provoked to anger.  I use my body pain as an excuse to lose hope and love.

I am not necessarily a religious person, though at times in my life I have been.

I am a work in progress and no matter what body pain I am experiencing, I need to remind myself to not be provoked to anger.  I need to remind myself to always be patient, to be forgiving and to display love.

I receive much support and encouragement from comments that are left on my posts that help me a great deal.

I receive much inspiration from other’s posts which also help me a great deal.

Thank you Curry N Code and others who publish posts that resonate with me.

I may not always leave a comment, but many of your posts touch me and inspire me.

47 thoughts on “Pain, Moods & Me

  1. Remember to include yourself in your quest to be patient and kind. Pain is not an easy thing to live with, and it takes a lot of time to get ‘used to’ (sad isn’t it that we should have to get used to such a thing). Will you cease to be entirely angry? In my opinion, no. I’ve dealt with mine since about 2002 and I still lose my temper or rage against God for giving me the burden to bear. All we can do is do the best we can each day and arise each day with a resolve to do better maybe. Your journey is yours and I hope you know that you provide hope for some of us as well. 🙂

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    • Thank you Embeecee for your understanding and kind comment. Pain is difficult to live with and the taking of pills makes my days more difficult because of the side affects. But as you indicated, we arise each day with a resolve to do better. Thanks dear, hope you have a wonderful week. 🙂

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  2. I did not know it is cancer you are dealing with. There are cancers and then there are cancers. All are frightening, terrifying, but as an RN working with cancer patients, cancer research and the worse cancers, I have found that patients who have a great outlook, even while experiencing terrible pain, even with the worse cancers, do extremely well and I think you have a very positive outlook. Karen

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    • Thank you Karen for your honest comment and I do try to have a positive outlook though I have my moments of negativity. I just wake every morning and do my best to have a good day. I appreciate you reading and commenting today. 🙂

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      • Yes, we bloggers care about one another a great deal, we become like family. I do know what you are going through. I had life-threatening cancer when I was 24. They thought I was too far gone for treatment, even surgery, I actually died on the operating table, right before they could operate and they could do nothing, but they got me back. They didn’t think I would survive anyway. So, after a two month in the hospital and I didn’t die, they said, well let’s try surgery again. They did and here I am, several surgeries later, another bout of cancer 10 years after the first, but here I am, still. I am not going to die of cancer, ever. I made up my mind years ago. Karen

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  3. It’s easy to say and think these words about patience and anger, but often hard to live them, no matter how hard we try. Add into it the things you are going through, Terry, and I imagine it’s doubly difficult to live them. The fact that you try to do so is more than a lot of people do, and I think that those of us who are lucky enough to spend time with you here on your blog know that you succeed in living them, probably more than you give yourself credit for.

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    • That is what this blog is about – being honest and I have never tried to hide my feelings or emotions here. I am fortunate to have many wonderful friends such as yourself who support me and for that I am grateful. Thank you Kathryn. 🙂

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  4. Again, there you are showing gratitude. Terry, I have said it before and I will say it again. You are a wonderful remarkable person. You are going through so much, and still you have time for others, still, you try. You try constantly to be better, and rectify your said faults. I think a lot of people are a work in progress, I certainly am, for sure! Thank you, for this post and thank you for the inspiration. Hugs 🙂

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  5. It’s hard to not let pain influence our mood, be it physical or emotional. Conditioning ourselves to “not be provoked” is indeed a feat and not one I have mastered by any means…but it is certainly a good approach. I think you do remarkably well, considering what you are dealing with. We’re all allowed to have “pissy” days but I guess the trick is to do exactly what Curry N Code suggests and not let them overwhelm us.
    Hugs to you and Gary. 🙂

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    • My pain is affecting not only my mood, but everything else as well. I have little motivation and drive. My ‘pissy’ days are almost everyday, I just keep telling myself to hang on, I have appointments soon. I hope we find the source soon, because the pain medications are increasing, and I hate taking them to begin with. Thank you Laurel for your support, you are a good friend. 🙂

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      • You are telling yourself the right thing. Just hang on. Recognize things for what they are. It’s okay to have pissy days. When we do, they make the un-pissy days better. I hope the appointments offer a solution for your pain. What a wonderful day it will be when you are pain and drug free. I am keeping my fingers crossed that the day will come very soon.
        As always, hugs to you and Gary. 🙂

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  6. Thank you for sharing this. You need peace and positiveness to cure and you are right: anger is not the way to go – but it is something we all grab on to way too often. Have you looked into mindfulness meditation? There is research that shows that it helps with for example chronic pain. Again: thank you for sharing and sending you positive energy.

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    • Thank you for your comment. I use to do mindfulness meditation, but I gotten out of the habit. There is much going on with my body and life right now and it is difficult at times. I appreciate you stopping by today. 🙂

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  7. Oh Terry, you are so okay to say your weak….I know you fight this, but sweetheart its okay to be in the moment…if you feel weak, accept it and let it be…I agree that the pain needs be controlled better and hope that they can help you out..that could help you with your strength…Terry you are one of the most upbeat, positive people I have ever come across….I am so sorry that this ugly disease has chosen you….I know that you will fight this with all you are…I hope your feeling better on this day and pain free……twirling, twirling, twirling for you……xxxxkat

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    • Thanks kat for the twirling, I always appreciate you. I had appointment just this morning with pain management and I have some upcoming procedures that I hope will help relieve the pain. Thanks for catching up on my posts, I hope all is well with you. 🙂

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