Negative, out of me

I write posts about my life, my experiences, my feelings & emotions and my cancer.

I am very prepared and have posts written in advanced; so, sometimes when I publish a post, it could be a week ago I wrote it or sometimes even longer.

Why am I telling you this?

Because my life like others is fluid and changes daily and even sometimes many times a day.

Negative, ‘downer’ posts as I refer to them have been dominating my blog lately.

I felt after yesterday’s post, I needed to explain.

Thank you for your time.

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Negative, out of me –

52 thoughts on “Negative, out of me

  1. Terry you don’t owe anyone an explanation. You write and we choose to read. We hear and understand. We don’t judge or lecture. I totally get what you are going through and feeling. I know from experience that writing helps relieve what we feel inside by sharing. Please continue to write away, the good and the bad. I would not have it any other way.

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  2. Thank you for being so thoughtful. There was no explanation needed but I can understand why you wanted to. Living with such debilitating pain is bound to be a blocker to being the life and soul of the party and I really hope that next week brings answers and solutions so that you can get some life-quality back and enjoy each day rather than enduring each day. I hope that very very much.

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    • I hope also relief comes soon and my quality of life improves. I know changes are coming soon, so just knowing helps me be optimistic. Thank you Osyth for being one of my greatest supporters. You always have kind and caring words – what a great friend you are. Happy Day! 🙂

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  3. Oh, dear Terry, I know and I hear you loud and clear. Maybe too loud and clear. I wish I could do so much more than reading your posts, offer support, and yes admittedly sometimes push at you. We’ve been blogging buddies for a few years now and please know I feel as if I’m walking this part of your life with you, as much as is possible through your writing, and above all, I am always here cheering you on no matter how things are going.
    It’s so good to see you on a video post again! Have a good day, my friend. 🙂

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    • Amanda, we have been blogging buddies for a couple of years, and I certainly appreciate the friendship we have created. Thanks for being here for me and supporting me as I go through my difficult time – I can hear you cheering. Thank you for stopping by today and I hope your day is a happy one. 🙂

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  4. My friend, you really don’t need to explain. Your posts are honest and are you. I know you are having a tough time right now with the pain and everything, and I am grateful that you share these times and your emotions with all of us. That is what makes you, you. I really hope next week does bring some relief for you. Less pain or better still no pain will do wonders for you emotionally and physically. Thinking of you. Hugs 🙂 x

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  5. I felt your pain as you spoke in this video. I don’t consider your posts downer I consider them real. I appreciate your real and honesty. Because pain. Just pain as you described is very hard to fight through especially if you are out of fight so you just need it to pass to a cope-able level. I’m just thinking of you and wishing that pain level was lower and i am just so sorry you are hurting!

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    • Thank you Bethany for your understanding and support. This pain lately in my body has at times taken control and I as you wrote I am out of fight. The posts I write are my honest thoughts and experiences. I appreciate you and thank you. I am hoping soon the pain relief will come. Hope you are having a good day. 🙂

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      • We were consumed with health problems and our illness a few days ago and so yesterday we ventured out into the prairie and pet some horses. There are ofcourse consequences for pushing a body already hurting but just touching an animal and kissing their nose just made both of us feel better. I wake up with fight and it fizzles out pretty quickly ! I have sometimes lost myself in the struggle with my health. I love that you, even though out of fight, still got up, went outside and made that video. That means something!!!!!

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        • I understand about pushing a body already hurting, it is very difficult. I keep you in my thoughts Bethany, I know things are difficult for you. Thanks for stopping by, it means a great deal to me. 🙂

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          • Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts. What a wonderful thing to say. To know someone out in the big wide world wishes me well, means a lot, it really does. Thank you.

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    • Thank you Roberta, your support means a great deal to me and I am glad you do not mind my ‘downer’ posts. They are just part of me and I appreciate you wanting to know about me and my life. Happy day my friend. 🙂

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  6. At one point in the video, you called these negative posts your “bad side” – but these are the real and honest feelings about the pain you’re going through right now. If being real and honest is your “bad side,” that’s not a bad thing at all, particularly when it comes to sharing the pain you’re going through these days.

    As always, thinking of you here – and wishing there was more I could do to help ease some of the pain you’re suffering.

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    • Thanks Sarah for understanding me. And that ‘bad side’ of me has been around for the past several weeks – I am hoping next week changes come, I need some relief soon. I appreciate your thoughts and support. 🙂

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  7. Hey Terry, no need to explain or apologise. I had a little chuckle when you waved away the insects. The flies are so persistent in Australia—buzzing around your face—that we call that waving gesture the’Australian salute’.

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  8. I don’t think you need to explain (but you certainly can if you want!) Anyone with pain understands to some degree how it can crush the spirit. I swear, I go through periods of hope and despair every single day! It’s a roller coaster. It’s exhausting. So vent away. I’ll never judge you negatively for it. I think your honesty is so courageous and admire it.

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    • I appreciate your understanding comment and thank you for allowing me to vent. It does good to write about it – though I would rather write about something a little more uplifting. Thank you for reading and commenting. 🙂

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  9. If all of felt guilty for posting “negative” things, there’d be a whole lot of guilt flying around.
    Never feel guilty for expressing pain and struggles. You tell us the truth…what is your reality…you don’t sugar-coat anything. Physical, emotional and mental pain is REAL. Like was said in another comment…we are walking through this journey with you. Even with your horrific pain, I hope you can take some comfort in knowing that there are so many of us who are your greatest cheerleaders.
    Hugs to you and your wonderful Gary. 😘😘

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    • I do take comfort knowing I have a cheerleading squad – there are many of you. Thanks Laurel for your understanding and appreciating my posts – good and bad. Gary and I appreciate your hugs. 🙂

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  10. Just so much pain! I hope they can get a plan for you ASAP. Your posts are not negative at all. We want to know how you are doing because we care about you so, so much! Good days and bad days the care and respect never wavers. The hugs continue all day and night long. 🤗❤️

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    • Thank you Blue for your concern and support. I am hoping the Monday’s first injection will bring me relief. Thank you as always for stopping by to read and comment – I do hope all is going well with you. Hugs to you as well. 🙂

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  11. Terry, I pray to the good Lord above that the new treatment will ease your pain and help your quality of life! And pshaw fretting about your downer posts, it’s YOU being YOU! We come here to read about YOU and not some fake life you are leading. With that, sending more love and hugs and strength! XOXOXO

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    • Thank you Kathryn for the prayers. I appreciate you reading and accepting my downer posts. I am just being real here on my blog and not sugar coating what is taking place in my life. Thanks for the hugs and strength, you are a great friend – Happy Friday! 🙂

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  12. My grandmother had neuralgia in her face and I remember how bad the pain got. There is something about nerve pain that we just can’t tolerate. I don’t have much knowledge about pain therapy but has anyone suggested medical marijuana? Cancer just sucks.

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