Months not Years

In my post ‘something changes direction‘, I wrote these words –

The results of the CT Scan and MRI came back with additional bad news.

My cancer has now spread into my bones and spine as well as additional Lymph Nodes.  It was only one month ago I had scans performed and these areas were clear and displayed nothing out of the ordinary.  The doctors are amazed at how quickly my cancer has spread.

So, what comes next?

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In today’s post, I write the following –

It was about 3 weeks ago, I received the news my cancer had spread into my bones, spinal cord and additional Lymph Nodes.

Following my hospital stay, I had a visit with my Oncologist Dr. L. to discuss my options.  One option was to do nothing and the other option was Immunotherapy.  Concerning Immunotherapy; any type of positive results is only about 15% – meaning 15% of participants will receive some type of response.  The response would be the slowing down of the progression of cancer to other parts of the body and/or stopping or slowing down the growth of the cancer cells.

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So, I asked Dr. L. the question; how many years would my life be extended, if there were a positive result?  His response was that we are talking about months, not years.

It is mid-July and sometime in late August scans will take place to compare to previous ones.  What will they reveal?  Any changes?  We will find out soon enough and further decisions will be made.

Whatever those results and decisions, my time is limited to months not years.  I know this and Gary knows this as does my family.

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I will continue to write and publish posts until it comes a time I am unable to do so.

110 thoughts on “Months not Years

    • We are making the most of the time, but unfortunately the pain associated with my cancer prevents doing some things we would like to do. Thank you for caring, I feel fortunate having you and many others here I consider friends. 🙂

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  1. There are no words that I know that would probably help at this time. Having been through this awful ordeal of Cancer with my late Husband, and waiting through the final time. Whatever people said to me went over my head I was where? All I can say is that I will Pray for you and Gary and your Mother that God may grant you all the strength to see you through this time. Every second, every moment, every memory is so precious. I am so glad to have met you albeit via the internet. My thoughts are with you, God Bless Terry. Anna.

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  2. I am so very sorry to hear this Terry. You have so much love and support surrounding you, and while this is your personal journey, I hope you and Gary know that you are not alone through your continued fight. Many people are praying for you, for your peace and for your well being. I’m sorry, but I still can’t do anything but hope and pray for a miracle, and I will continue to do so. Blessings to you, and have a great weekend.

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    • Paula, both Gary and I continue to hold on to hope and for that same miracle. I am very fortunate to have many wonderful friends here on WP who truly care about Gary and myself. Thank you for your continued support. You have a great weekend as well. 🙂

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    • Thank you Lynne for your thoughts and prayers. Your caring friendship is valuable to me and I truly feel fortunate having met you even if it is just ‘online’. Love and hugs to you as well – hope you have a lovely weekend. 🙂

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      • Terry you are incredibly special to me, and I feel so honoured to have met you. Thank you for the love and hugs, they mean the world to me. Hope you are able to sit outside a bit and enjoy the warmth of the sun. xxx

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  3. Dear Terry,after my mother (may she rest in peace) was told that she had less than 6 months, she lived for almost 3 years. It’s in His hands, regardless of all the doctors and their percentages. My prayers are always with you. Be of good cheer and keep smiling!

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    • Dolly, I have not been given a timeframe, so therefore I may be around for awhile. Ultimately my cancer will take over, it is just a matter of time – maybe 6 months, maybe 6 years. I appreciate your support and encouragement and hope you have a great weekend. 🙂

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  4. Oh, Terry! ☹️ Months… enjoy every minute you can. You are the kindest and one of the most positive people. Cancer just sucks! I am so very sorry. Is your pain still around a 5? Can you be out and about a little? My very best to you, my friend! ❤️

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  5. I don’t have the words to express my despair and sorrow reading this. It is too cruel and too damn unfair. But through my anger and frustration at the dreadful news I am sending you all the strength and warmth and gentlest hugs I have and I remain hopeful for you. Hugs too for Gary. Huge enveloping hold you up so you can keep doing the phenomenal job of caring for your husband hugs.

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    • Your strength and warmth and gentle hugs do help with the hope that I cling on to. Gary is an amazing man who takes care of me with unselfish devotion. Thank you Osyth for your friendship and truly authentic words of support and care. I plan to continue to fight with all I have and be around for as long as I am allowed. Hope you are happy and life is treating you well. 🙂

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  6. Terry, I’m so very sorry to hear this. If it were me I don’t think I would want to be given a timeframe–months can certainly turn into years, who really knows. We all know of people who have defied whatever odds they were given. I hope your pain is under control. Having read many of your posts from the past, your blog has been a source of inspiration to me. Lots of posts have made me think–others made me smile. Obviously you have touched many people. You are in my thoughts daily.

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    • Yes Gillian, months can certainly turn into years. So I hold on to hope for that reason and in the present deal with what I have one day at a time. I appreciate your kind words of support. Have a great weekend. 🙂

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  7. I need to speak to the spoon god about this. Clearly he is not doing his job properly, and certainly not the job I expected him to do! Now the only thing I can be sure of is that Gary, your family and all of us here will cherish every day, month, year you are here to share your journey with us—and may that be as pain-free as possible.

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  8. I will continue to dance in the moon light for you my friend….will call out to all the Godess’s and Gods I know of…..Hot tears…..even thought I have never had the pleasure of giving you and Gary a soft hug in person, you both are forever in my heart…..k

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    • Thank you kat for the continued dancing under the moon light. I guess the soft hugs will not happen, but I do feel the special friendship we have through your words. Sending hugs back, thank you for being a great friend, you are special. 🙂

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  9. Oh Terry – in my heart I knew this, but it still seems so hard to believe. Have you come to terms with this? As if that is possible -right??!! Oh sweet friend! I can’t even imagine a day when I don’t have your post to read or the opportunity to write to you, but I will always remember these days! I will be forever impacted by our friendship. I so hope you are seeking the care the hospice benefit provides (at no charge to you) – and so much help physically and emotionally. Love you my friend – more than you can ever know! ❤

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    • I have looked into hospice, but not quite there yet for their services. Immunotherapy treatment is in progress and late next month more scans will take place to determine the effectiveness of that treatment. We also have other plans in the works to better prepare me for later comfort situations. I will continue to write and post as I proceed further. I appreciate you Jodi, hope you are a great Saturday. 🙂

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  10. Oh my dear friend; I am so very sorry to hear this. I wish for you that every day of every month you have on this earth is spent knowing that you are loved and cherished and held in the highest regard by so many people. My thoughts are with you and Gary and your families.

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    • Su, I am fortunate of the many wonderful supportive people here on WP that are friends who provide me strength every single day. Your caring supportive comments are always appreciated and welcomed. Hope you have a peaceful weekend. 🙂

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    • Thank you Brigid, I appreciate you as a friend and all the prayers and hugs you have to share. I have time left and still hold on to hope that there will be a turn around in my health. I have not given up yet. While I am still here, I continue to share my journey. Have a great weekend. 🙂

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  11. Like Jodi, I think I knew this too. I clearly remember when you first posted about your cancer diagnosis – you knew you already had cancer. It has been such an honor to share this journey with you, dear friend, and my admiration knows no bounds that you have been able to write so frequently when in pain. My grief is palpable despite our virtual friendship. You have changed my life. Love K xx

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  12. Don’t let doctors put a time frame on your life. That is way too much stress. Live each day with the thoughts that you have 20 more years. People have outlived what others predicted. Stay true to yourself and keep smiling.

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  13. Dear Terry, I have my mum staying (it’s her birthday today) and so I haven’t been as attentive to you as I might have recently, I have come here quickly to check up on you while Mum and hb work out their financial transactions (he gets her paper for her and it’s like Wall Street trading around here 😄) I am sorry to hear the extent of the bad news but reassured to read of your positive outlook and also wanted to thank you for taking the time to keep us up to date, no matter how bad you feel. Despite being busy with my home life, I’m never too busy to think of you and Gary and send my love to you both. 💜

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    • Thank you Chris for taking the time to catch-up. I appreciate your support and caring comment and your thoughts for Gary and I as we go through this difficult time. I remain positive there is a ray of hope for a chance to be around for as long as possible. I will continue to write and post for as long as possible and appreciate you taking the time to read and comment. Enjoy your mum and have a great rest of the weekend. 🙂

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    • Thank you Kathryn, your words have great meaning for me. To have yours and other friend’s support here on WP, I am truly grateful. I hold on to hope as I continue to move forward. Hope you have a happy Monday! 🙂

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  14. My sorrow is beyond words, dear Terry. But I refuse to give up hope that those months can well develop into years! The immunotherapy simply has to work, and work it will! Don´t give up, Terry, fight like you never fought before! I know you´ve been through so much pain and black hours now but try to keep up the fight! Many, many gently hugs and sunshine to you, my dear friend! 🙂 ❤

    P.S. I´m sure you remember the post I wrote not long ago about those post cards that were sent to me by a WordPress friend? I decided to do this too, but didn´t want to write it in a post, because I only want to sent these handmade cards to the few people I really think of as my friends here and not every subscriber of my blog – one of these friends is obviously you 😉 So, if you would like to get this snail mail, you can simply send me your address via email. My email address is: miss_dragonfly@gmx.de
    ❤ 🙂

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