Currently my body is taking a beating.
Cancer is beating every part of my body and not wasting time doing it.
Immunotherapy is beating on my body with tiredness and fatigue.
Pain medications are beating my body and causing the bowels to not function properly.
Lymphedema is beating on my feet and legs and causing painful movement.
I wake every morning knowing my body will once again feel ache, tiredness, bowel issues and pain with movement.
I wake every morning knowing I will have a day I will need to fight back.
Fighting back is keeping a positive attitude – the best I can under the circumstances.
Fighting back is holding on to hope – there is always hope.
Fighting back is performing daily physical exercises – even when I don’t want to.
Fighting back is eating as well as I can – even when I have no appetite.
Currently my mind is taking a beating.
Cancer is beating every part of my body including my mind – my thoughts and my emotions at times are weak.
Immunotherapy is beating on my mind with fatigue and lethargy – I am limited on time to use my mind for much rest is needed.
Pain medications are beating my mind and causing tiredness and limited thinking – I must rest and try to rejuvenate.
Lymphedema is beating my mind due to the effects from my limited walking.
I wake every morning knowing my mind will once again feel fatigued and emotional.
I wake every morning knowing I will have a day I will need to fight back.
Fighting back is keeping a positive attitude – the best I can under the circumstances.
Fighting back is holding on to hope – there is always hope.
Fighting back is performing daily mindfulness exercises – even when I don’t want to.
Fighting back is eating as well as I can – even when I have no appetite.
Currently my soul is taking a beating.
Cancer is beating every aspect of my being including my soul – my identity, that spiritual part of me is receiving messages of non-understanding thoughts.
Immunotherapy is beating on my soul with questioning decisions and actions – am I spiritual and is this part of me being tested?
Pain medications are beating my soul and causing limited thinking – I must rest and follow that which comes from wisdom and makes some logic.
Lymphedema is beating my soul because of body image, pain and limitations.
I wake every morning knowing my soul will once again have questions with no answers.
I wake every morning knowing I will have a day I will need to fight back.
Fighting back is keeping a positive attitude – the best I can under the circumstances.
Fighting back is holding on to hope – there is always hope.
Fighting back is performing daily support from confirmations – even when I don’t feel it.
Fighting back is eating as well as I can – even when I have no appetite.
❤ to you….
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Thank you Marci – very much appreciated. Thank you for stopping be each day. 🙂
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Keep up the fight, dear Terry! Don´t let this s.. o. a b…. win! (sorry if this was too rude – I feel like I go berserk when thinking of what you have to go through all the time and just want to kick some a… 😉 – sorry again! )
Many gentle hugs and sunshine to you! 🙂 ❤
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Thanks Sarah for the inspiring comment, I keep fighting the good fight. And the gentle hugs and sunshine are always appreciated. 🙂
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I´m so glad to hear that, Terry! And more gentle hugs and sunshine coming your way! 🙂 ❤
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Wish you all the best, Terry
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Thank you Irene, I appreciate you. Happy Day my friend. 🙂
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Happy Day for you too, Terry.
I was lucky to survive long time in UCI, we need to believe, that you will be able to heal too, dear friend 🙂
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Thank you Tink for stopping by each day. Hope everything is going well for you. 🙂
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Blessings to you Terry. 😇
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Thank you Brigid. 🙂
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Mind, body and soul…of course. You have our support, Terry. Hang on to that hope.
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Thank you Van, yes I will hang on to hope because it is always there. Happy Day! 🙂
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Love and hugs always my friend. I know this is not easy. xxx
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Than you Lynne, I appreciate you – Happy Day! 🙂
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Wishing you the best
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Thank you Charles. 🙂
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Quite apart from my daily need to send you strength, send you encouragement, send you all I have to help you fight on I need to say something else. When you write, Terry you write with a rhythm which is almost hypnotic. I know you to be a tiny weeny bit OCD (!) but you harness that when you write freely and the effect is quite stunning. These words (as are so many that you have written about your illness) have a devastatingly emotional impact on the reader, forcing us to listen and hear. I thank you for the gift of your words written in the grip of the most awful ravages of your body, mind and spirit. I just thank you for who you are, Terry. Really an extraordinary, incredible man.
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Osyth, my biggest fan, your very kind comment I take to heart. What a special friend you are – thank you for your friendship, your support and the strength and encouragement you send on a daily basis. I am fortunate to know you, even if it is online. Thanks again for your comment and words – my heart shines brightly. I hope everything is going well for you. Happy Day! 🙂
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But you ARE fighting, that is the best thing of all. Love and hugs. xo
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Yes, I continue to fight – thank you Kathryn. 🙂
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I feel sad for what you are going through. Sending you peace, love and comfort. ❤
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Thank you very much my friend, I appreciate your support. Happy Day to you! 🙂
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It is such a different experience when all three are taking a beating at once. That you still keep the hope, keep eating, keep fighting through those beatings takes my breath away. Sending love
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Thank you Bethany for your comment and taking the time to read today. Happy Day! 🙂
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I think of you often. I look forward to your blogs and feel blessed to be able to send my love through a comment.
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You’re a strong man Terry, even if you don’t think so right now. Keep fighting.
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Thank you Paula, yes I will keep fighting. Wishing you a great day! 🙂
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Keep on fighting – I know you will, but I want to say it again today.
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Thank you Sarah, I will! I appreciate your support. 🙂
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But I hope your heart is beating full of love!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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It certainly is Jodi! 🙂
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Oh, dear Terry, despite all this devastation, your fighting spirit shines through! Sending prayers and blessings your way!
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Thank you Dolly, your support is appreciated. Happy Day! 🙂
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The day is coming to and end, and I hope you had a reasonably good one, and tomorrow will be even better because it’s one day closer to the weekend visit.
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Sending you much love xx
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Thank you very much. 🙂
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Sending you some extra fight for your body, mind & soul this evening. Warm hugs to you my friend 💕
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Thank you Alexis. 🙂
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So sorry you are having to wage war on all fronts. Sending knives and forks to help in the battles. Sending lots of hugs too.
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Thank you very much Peggy. 🙂
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You are walking an incredibly difficult journey with honesty, boldness, and bravery. What an example you are. I am so sorry for your pain. There are no other words.
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No other words are necessary, I appreciate your support by reading and commenting. Thank you for your kind comment, I appreciate it very much. Hope your week is going well for you. 🙂
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I offer a very gentle hug
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Thank you Derrick. 🙂
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Hugs to you, Terry. Praying for a miracle.😇
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Thank you Eugenia, there are many people who are – I appreciate everyone of them. Happy Day. 🙂
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It must be so difficult to think clearly with the medication and treatment and yet you can still communicate beautifully. Sending a big hug and kiss. K x
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Yes, there are times I do have difficulty thinking about anything! Thank you for the compliment Kerry, you are very kind 🙂
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Said from the heart….I love the way your write….honest, full of emotion, positive and always to the point….sending you strength and love….xxkat
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Thank you kat, I appreciate your comment. Hope your week has been happy! 🙂
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Sending you hugs…
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Thank you very much Sharon, very much appreciated. 🙂
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I got this from an Asian movie, life is like playing monopoly, the “chance” card. The probability of drawing a chance card is not that great. Lets say 15%, It could be a chance win something or fate to go to jail. In life the chance of meeting our life partner, our lover is probably the same. But then the fate card, beating cancer or a particular surgery also stands at a low percentage. But until the game ends you always have a possibility of drawing the right card. Unless you decide to quit the game before it actually ends. As long as we have the nerve to open that next card, there is always hope.
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Thank you for your very kind and thoughtful comment. I appreciate you stopping by to read and comment. 🙂
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It takes courage to face every day. Sending a ((hug)) to help you today. 💕
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Thank you Val. Happy Day my friend. 🙂
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I cannot imagine how difficult this is, but I am sending all the positive vibes and strength that I can your way. ❤ Thank you so much for posting, this is bitterly beautiful.
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I appreciate you stopping by to read and comment. And thank you for the positive vibes and strength, I hope you have a happy day. 🙂
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Keep fighting!!!
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