Reading your posts I feel I am looking on helplessly watching an unrelenting assault. I cannot imagine what it must be like for Gary and for your close family and friends. And for you …. for you enduring ALL these painful conditions and each time you turn to walk away feeling a little less racked with pain BANG – there’s another thing to start ratcheting it up and remind you. Helpless I am but I have a strong heart and I send you all the strength I have to help you battle on. And soft hugs. As many as you can stand.
My response –
Osyth, I will admit – some days I find difficulty in living. As you indicated in your comment there is an unrelenting assault taking place on my body. The emotional toll it is taking on Gary is evident as he sees me everyday and experiences what I am going through on a daily basis. It is tough on both him and I. I appreciate your strength in helping me battle on and the soft hugs are always welcomed. Hope your day is beautiful and full of sunshine.
At times, there seems to be an unrelenting assault taking place. Each day I wake, I know what to expect; I am very tired and drowsy and weak.
The unrelenting assault is coming from cancer waging a war on my body along with the immunotherapy weakening my immune system and the many drugs my body is having to take that help with pain management and other needed reasons, but also come with side effects that negatively affect me. Then there is the lymphedema that is currently taking place. The lymphedema causing pain, and causes inconveniences with walking, standing and sleeping.
The assaults on my body some days are difficult to deal with and very time consuming. It takes me much longer to do daily tasks and much of that requires help from Gary. Besides needing help with daily tasks, Gary takes on many other responsibilities including picking up my prescriptions, grocery shopping, cooking, laundry, and this list continues.
The most important item on the list is his never-ending determination to make my life easier. He is always available for me when I need help. Some days he struggles watching me as I deal with pain, discomfort and the relentless assaults taking place on my body every day. Some days he struggles with the idea I may not be here much longer.