Cancer will take my life

In my post ‘I will see her again‘, I concluded with the following –

These family members know my life may be short.  The once small cancer that was found almost 2 years ago, is now taking over my body.  The treatments may help slow down the progression, but ultimately my cancer will take my life.

In today’s post, I begin with the following –

In last Friday’s post ‘…out of my nose soon‘, I wrote about a small surgery to take place to insert a ‘G Tube’, from my stomach to the outside of my body.  This ‘G Tube’ will provide me a way to release the pressure from my stomach and small intestines without a tube going through my nose.  This ‘G Tube’ should bring me some relieve, however it brings on a whole another set of challenges.  With this tube, I will no longer eat through my mouth; but instead through an IV.

The surgery last Thursday was a success and after several more days of observation it was time to leave the hospital.

I spent my last 13 days in the hospital and arrived home again yesterday to the RV.  I am very glad to be out of the hospital and to be feeling better today.

Did you notice the pictures associated with last Friday’s post?  JImage2ust viewing some of the pictures, some of you know, a few may not have figured it out, and it may be others are not ready to accept or acknowledge.

I did not need to write the words, the associated pictures displayed the words in plain for all to see.

I left the hospital yesterday and now am back home in my RV to start my Hospice care.

Cancer will take my life.  I have always referred to this cancer in my body as my cancer as it does not belong to anyone else.  My cancer will take my life.  Those pictures associated to last Friday’s post revealed just how much my cancer has taken over and my fight is coming to an end.  My body and mind are worn and it is time to prepare for what is ultimately to take place.

20170416_194313 (2)The family visits of past weeks are over and my body is tired and mind is ready.

Hospice will begin this week and changes will take place in many areas for both Gary and me.  If you read my post yesterday, starting this week; the amount of posts will be reduced.

As always, I appreciate every one of you for stopping by each day to read and comment.  You my friends; your support and encouragement all have a huge positive impact on me.

But, now it is time – time for my cancer to take my life.

176 thoughts on “Cancer will take my life

  1. I’m so sad, as I read Jodi’s and your blog today…. not going to lie.
    But I want to tell you – you make a difference in people’s lives. WP is amazing in that you don’t know who or how, you touch someone. But. You Do.
    Your kindnesses are always looked for and so appreciated Terry.
    I smile every single time I see “Spearfruit” on the comments or likes. hugs & prayers

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    • Thank you very much for stopping by to read and comment and I appreciate you sending love and light my way. Jodi is certainly a special friend of mine and I am grateful to be friends with her. Happy Day to you. 🙂

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    • Thank you Joyce and yes I agree the closeness of all my virtual friends around the world cannot and never will be broken. I am extremely fortunate for you and the many others here that have supported and encouraged me along the way with my battle with cancer. Thank you for stopping by to read and comment today. 🙂

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  2. Oh Terry, you and Gary are always in my thoughts and I know that there are so many others who feel the same. I’ve been offline and so this was a shock to see. You both have the love and support of so many of us and I just wish that there was more we could do for you xxx

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    • Oh dear, you stopping by to read and comment is enough – I feel extremely fortunate to have many wonderful WP friends from around the world supporting me. Thank you again, I hope your week goes well for you. 🙂

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  3. I have been thinking about your post for a couple of days. How I wish that things were different. You have been through so much. Hope you know what a huge inspiration you have been. You have faced your circumstances with an attitude that has taught me many things about living life, with or without illness. I also hope that the love and support of your readers will provide some comfort. You will be remembered.

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    • Yes, certainly the love and support here brings me a huge amount of comfort. I am fortunate to have been able to help others as I continue this journey. Thank you for reading and commenting, I appreciate both very much. Happy Thursday! 🙂

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  4. I found your blog through your friend Jodi’s post, where she wrote so eloquently about your friendship. This post is so brave and honest, and I am in awe of your courage. Wishing peace and love to you as you begin this final journey, and strength for all those who love you.

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    • Thank you for stopping by to read and leave a lovely comment. Jodi is certainly a special friend, and I appreciate her and yourself for taking some time for me today. I hope you have a happy day. 🙂

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  5. My dear friend, I send you love. All I hope for is that your pain be lessened. You have allowed us to share a most personal journey that we will all take in different ways. Hopefully we will meet on the other side with no pain in our bodies or minds. Much love K x

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  6. I saw the pictures and of course I knew. I knew and I cried. I cried and I shouted that its not fair. But then I reminded myself that life just isn’t. I had a beautiful conversation with my second daughter who lives in Malaysia last week and we spoke of our belief that places aren’t haunted, people are. You will haunt me, I know you will and we will share cupcakes and ice-cream because every time I have them I will be with you and you with me. That’s how it will work – dancing in the ether you will never be gone from the hearts that you have infected with your generous and beautiful spirit. I wish you peace and rest, I wish Gary strength and I wish you both love and time. Precious time before your Cancer steals you away. You have been a tremendous influence on me – more than you probably know. And now I’m bluddy well crying again …. because I can’t stand what has happened and you have so much more dignity than me. So I’ll leave you now in quietude to adapt to what is now happening to you and to be with your one true love. And Lady Roxie. X

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    • Osyth, eat lots of cupcakes and ice cream and yes think of me – I will be with you. You my friend with many others I really wanted to meet in person. I am saddened that this most likely will not take place, but I can continue to think about it while I am still here – and I receive comfort from these thoughts. Thank you for your always kind words you have for each these past months, I appreciate each one of your comments, truly I do. May I hold your hand and say – you my friend have made a difference in my life – I value this until the end. May the rest of your week be a Happy Week! 🙂

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  7. Our internet went out for four days after a tree took down some power lines in the neighborhood. We are finally back up and running and I wanted to stop by and let you know that you have been in my thoughts and prayers as you continue your journey. I have heard wonderful things about hospice. I am now leaving town for a week, so wanted to give you some huge hugs and love before I go. You have made such an impression on me with your courage and honesty. I am also sending huge hugs and love to Gary, the love of your life. You are both such special people. Peace to the both of you. xoxoxoxo

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    • Thank you Kathryn, for stopping by and always leaving kind comments. I am honored to have wonderful support here and many wonderful friends such as yourself. Have a safe trip and a happy day my friend. 🙂

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  8. The ending of life as we know it is so incredibly sad. My eyes are filled with tears and my heart aches for you and Gary. Thank you for sharing how you are facing these last days Terry. I admire you so much in how you have been true to yourself in this horrific journey.
    I am so relieved that you are home and can be together with Gary.
    May hospice care bring you comfort and some peace as you prepare for this last stage in life. I believe its a letting go back into the space that we came from. I would like to share these words with you, which I will share when it is my turn.
    Do not stand at my grave and weep
    I am not there; I do not sleep.
    I am a thousand winds that blow,
    I am the diamond glints on snow,
    I am the sun on ripened grain,
    I am the gentle autumn rain.
    When you awaken in the morning’s hush
    I am the swift uplifting rush
    Of quiet birds in circled flight.
    I am the soft stars that shine at night.
    Do not stand at my grave and cry,
    I am not there; I did not die.
    –Mary Elizabeth Frye
    Gentle hugs xoxo

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  9. Dear Terry, yes, I’ve been watching your photographs closely and despite not wanting to knowing that this post was coming.
    I feel honoured to be one of the people who you have shared so much of yourself with through your blog. From your first boogie blogging and so much more. Thank you my friend. Please try and enjoy as relax as you can with Gary and Roxie now, you more than deserve it. Your courage is incredible.
    Lastly. I hoe this isn’t too insensitive, but if you suddenly get very sick is there a way for Gary to let us know. I and I think all of us would appreciate so much getting updates. 🤗

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  10. Dear Spearfruit — My heart is full – for you, for your fight, your bravery, your willingness to include us in your daily confrontations, your pain, your relief from pain. I came into this thread late in your pathway, but am so encouraged by your courage. That’s it – encouragement – you give us that courage! May you have the most peaceful transition, enveloped by love ❤

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    • Hey, Just wanted to thank you for commenting on Terry’s post. Unfortunately Terry passed away on Sept 1 at 2 pm. I have continued to keep Terry’s blog active and have written several new posts since his passing. Thanks again Gary

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  11. So sad post Terry. But don’t say that. This can sound like a phrase, but you should fight to the end. Faith is when you see invisible and when you believe in impossible . Have a faith my friend. Be strong . God bless you

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  12. It is so wonderful to see you channel your strength towards something positive. Really inspiring and motivating message to always find something in life no matter what. You seem to have accepted your fate my friend that “we all die” but there are a few people who actually LIVE. “You are still living”

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