It is with a heavy heart to let you all know that my beloved dog “Roxy” passed away this evening while I was still at my brother Jan and sister-in-law Gail’s house in the Orlando area.
I had planned on leaving tomorrow morning (Wednesday) along with my “Roxy back for Cocoa Beach at around the same time that my younger brother Randy would be driving back with my Mom for the Fort Walton Beach area.
On Tuesday early evening we all decided to get out of the house for a few hours and to go out for dinner. So just prior to departing I fed Roxy. She was then resting comfortably on her bed in the caged lanai area outside in the backyard area of my brother’s house.
Then upon returning home I went out back to check on Roxy and my intention was to bring her back inside into the large TV room so she could be with us while we were going to all relax and watch a movie. To my surprise when I went outside, I did not hear the familiar little pitter patter of “Roxy’s” feet as I expected her to be happy to see me. Instead, I found my beloved “Roxy” floating face down in the middle of the pool, lifeless.
We are not sure what actually happened? Did she have a stroke or did she get startled by another animal outside of the caged area and run towards it and while doing so loose her balance and fall into the pool and then unable to find a way to safety drown? At this point, I will never know for sure, but I am devastated to know that she was in great need of my help and unfortunately, I was not there at the right moment to bring her to safety in her greatest moment of need. The vision of all this happening keeps haunting me and I have a feeling of great guilt and despair.
All that I know is that I will deeply miss my beloved and precious dog “Roxy” and to think just a little over three months since losing my beloved “Terry”. Life sometimes just doesn’t seem fair. The year 2017 had not been a good one for me, and I am so glad that it will be ending soon.
“Roxy” was such a faithful and friendly companion. She gave me great comfort and helped to remind me day after day that I was truly not totally alone after “Terry’s” passing and that she would be there by my side unconditionally to get me through all my grief. Now my dear dog “Roxy” is also no longer here with me physically and the reality is that she will not be accompanying me when I return back home tommorow to Cocoa Beach. From this point forward, just like “Terry”, “Roxy” will now only be with me in spirit and have a very special place deep in my heart. I am a least comforted to know that “Roxy” is now reunited with Terry in heaven and they will both take care of one another (and of course “Terry” will provide “Roxy” with an abundance of treats and “Roxy” will provide “Terry” with an abundance of licks) and they will both continue to watch over me from above and provide me with an abundance of love.
So I say again, so long my dear and faithful friend, “Roxy.” Safe journeys. You have brought to me so much love and happiness for the past 15 years. You truly were a faithful companion and will always be my best friend. I will miss your wagging tail as I brought you treats and more treats! I will miss your grunts as you devoured your bowls of food like there was no tomorrow. I will miss your loud snores at night that were actually a comfort to my ears., I will miss giving you long belly rubs which you loved so much and I in turn will miss getting all those licks and kisses from you that I thought would never end. All in all I will just miss you !!
With loving remembrance forever, Gary
P.S. I have asked my brother Randy to take “Roxy”with him tomorrow and to bury her in his back yard beside his former dog “ChiChi” who passed away tragically a few years ago under the same kinds of circumstances. “Roxy” spent many a visit at my brother’s home over the years and since I no longer have a permanent home or have my own permanent place to bury “Roxy” I am comforted to know that “Roxy” will have a final resting place at least in a familiar surroundings and next to his cousin “ChiChi.
So now I am the last one of four still standing from the immediate household that I have known for the past 15 years . First “Terry,” “Roxy,” and myself lost our beloved Chihuahua “Max” in the spring of 2014 while we were still living in Dallas, then “Roxy” and I had to say our farewell to our beloved “Terry” in September of this year and now I must once again have to say farewell to my beloved “Roxy” today and now I remain the last one standing. Such a lonely thought when I think about it. The next couple of days will be very tough for me once again and I may need to take a few days off from blogging. Please understand.
I leave you with this link for the most beautiful version of Hallelujah that I have ever heard in honor of “Roxy’s” passing as well as handful of the most recent photos of my dear dog.