Today when I awoke I was a bit down and got a little emotional (inwardly) thinking once again of the loss of Terry just 104 days ago and of all the physical and emotional suffering that he had to endure and that I had to help him cope with day after day as neither one of us truly knew what the future would hold and that all we could do was hope that things would be okay. I was upset (again inwardly) that Terry’s life had to end the way it did and at such a young age of only 57 years old. I know that outwardly I might appear from my posts to be very happy keeping busy with all the groups of people that I have been meeting while living here in Cocoa Beach, but truly inside I am still hurting alot and very sad and bitter that Terry is no longer here to share with me all that life has to offer. It seems so unfair.
Then early this morning while I was walking back to the RV after picking up some donuts from the club house for my mom for and while still a bit grumpy and depresed, I noticed a stupid black bird perched on the atenna of my RV. Since these birds are such a nuisance I scared it away. Then I thought for a moment could it be Terry visiting, but I then I blew off that theory and was just glad for now that the bird flew away.
About a hour later, I took a walk to the dumpster to get rid of some trash and wouldn’t you know it, when I returned back to the RV that damn black bird was once again perched on my RV antenna, so I scared it away one again and disputed for the second time that it couldn’t be Terry.
Shortly thereafter I went to the gym and upon returning back to the RV there it was again. THAT DAMN STUPID BLACK BIRD on my RV antenna!!! It wouldn’t take no for an answer. This time however when I once again attempted to scare the bird away it appeared to be surprised that I was trying to scare it off, but it reluctantly flew away. Then I thought …could it be actually be Terry trying to pay me a visit? Then I thought no…couldn’t be him as he hated these stupid black birds.
I then went back into the RV for a while and shortly therefter I heard a crackling sound coming from outside so I went back outside to see what it was. This time there was no black bird on my RV antenna but when I then looked at my truck…. to my surprise my windshield was covered my with bird poop! See the photo below.
So, here I was denying that this bird was TERRY and I did this 3 times in a row. Then I thought that the poop on my windshield was either a bad joke from Terry or a sign from him to emphasize to me to never doubt his presence when he atttempts to pay a visit to me. They say that bird drippings when they actually fall on you they bring you good luck, so maybe I just need to count my blessings. After all Terry probably wasn’t having the best of days either as first he was scared off by me 3 times and then he came back to see me this time as black bird that both he and I really despised in the past as these birds used to be so bothersome to us around our Dallas home.
For those even remotely religious.. remember the story in the Bible where Jesus told his disciple Peter, that he would deny to the Roman guards one day 3 times that he knew Jesus and that Peter would do this before the Roster
would crow. I guess that’s kind of what happened to me today except instead of the roster crowing….I got the bird chirping sound and then the bird poop! Okay,Okay,Okay already I will now never again doubt Terry’s presense no matter what he comes back to me to visit as! Amen. Luv Gary