Sorry I haven’t been blogging much lately. Ever since returning back to Cocoa Beach after Christmas I have been keeping pretty much to myself. For whatever reason, I haven’t had any desire to get out there and to socialize with others like I had been doing when I first got here, although there are still all kinds of things I could do. I don’t even socialize much with folks in the RV park. I know all this will eventually change and I will eventually get into the swing of things again, but for now I just needed a little bit of solitude to think about my past life and my companionship with Terry and with my two little dogs (Roxy and Max). My life in just these past few months has so dramatically changed where once again I am now living day by day on my own. I think the reality of it all is finally sinking in. It seems so hard for me these days to get excited about doing much of anything (other than going to the gym which luckily I still have been doing). When I was much younger it was very easy for me to get out and about and to travel and take vacations on my own and to meet others easily, but as I have gotten older it has become a lot more challenging to do. Quite frankly I don’t like to have to force myself to do this. I miss just having that day to day companionship with a soulmate like Terry and don’t think I ever will be able to do that again. I am not the easiest person to live with !
Sorry for the Debbie Downer post this evening, but wanted to let you know how I have been feeling these days. I don’t know how I came about finding this video and song on you tube, as it was merely by accident. Look at the title of the group with the same name as Terry Tidwell. Listen closely to the words of the song. Maybe it was just another way for Terry to converse indirectly with me thru this musical group to let me know that everything will be alright ? Luv Gary