Private Recording of Terry–Concerned About Taking Care of Me

Hey All,

The other day when I was writing a post called “Oouch….” in which I discussed some of my current and potential future healthcare issues.  Simultaneously and totally by accident, I came accross this private recording that Terry saved on his smart phone. It’s as if he wanted me to discover this message recording at that very moment.

Despite all Terry’s past challenges while combating his cancer and fighting for his life, he worried not only about his future destiny, but concerned about not being able to care for me when I might need it after his passing. He also did not want me to live out the rest of my life in loneliness. It just goes to show what a good, kind and caring person Terry was.

Depite my emotional ups and downs after Terry’s passing, I have tried to remain strong and to force myself to get out socially and to remain as active as I could, because I know this is the best thing for me to do and it is what Terry would have wanted. Now with the current development and some possible future health challenges, I will continue to remain strong and to confront each issue positively and to remind myself that there are many others in this world with health problems far greater than mine, so I must be grateful and never let myself become angry.  This is life and as Terry says in his voice recording at the very end “we are all going to die anyways.”  Now, although to my knowledge I am not near death (hopefully) I know Terry’s spirit continues to be with me and he is smiling down upon me from heaven and bringing me the comfort, the love and the strength to confront my current and future challenges and to remain optimistic to live my life to the fullest despite any obstacles.

All will be well.

Note:  FYI , June 1st was Terry’s 9 month anniversary for departing this earth to a much better place.  Also, This past weekend was actually the last time Terry was actually able to get outside and to take a long walk with me around the entire base without any assistance (i.e. walker, cane, wheelchair, etc;)  The weather was beautiful that day and Terry truly enjoyed the fresh air and natural beauty of what God gave us. However, that very next week, Terry began showing significant signs of deteriorating health and developing new complications.  That necessitated more specialized doctor visits, several hospitalizations, new medical procedures and a couple of inpatient stays in hospice until finally returning back to our RV to rest peacefully in the  last few days of his life.  From Father’s Day (last year) thru end of August, fortunately all Terry’s immediate family members had a chance to take turns to travel to Tampa to spend a few days with him, even if just to sit in our RV to chat or to reminisce or as applicable to visit him at the hospital.

Recording Below:

Luv,

Gary

24 thoughts on “Private Recording of Terry–Concerned About Taking Care of Me

  1. Oh Gary………. hearing that voice……. seeing those photos……. I feel the love. it hurts and I feel the loss, but I mostly feel the love. Interesting, I just wrote my post for Thursday, and I speak of Terry. His love carries on!!! Hugs! ❤

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  2. Oh my. He was and remains an amazing man. He loved and loves you so much. And I know he is proud of the way you are dealing with his loss, he worried so much about leaving you. He is present all around you of course and in every beat of your heart where he nestles eternally. But her worried about the day to day. He recorded his thoughts. And he led you to find them. When you would need them most. This journey is so hard for you but never ever lose sight of what you had and the simple truth that the only thing Terry wanted and wants is for you to be happy. I left you a message. I will keep trying. Much love xx

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  3. I missed this while I was away so I just now saw it. Hearing Terry’s voice today, it was just a great memory of all the chats we had here and how much he loved you. I miss him terribly still – so many things randomly remind me of him. Thinking of you both here today.

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  4. I’m so choked up..
    seeing him.. knowing the anxiety you were feeling as you watch him drifting and fading away…

    So glad you decided to keep his blog open and going..

    Gary you love him so passionately and he loved you too with that same intensity..

    It’s these small things that our hearts 💕 will always remember

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