Today is exactly 2 years since my dear Terry left this earth and went directly to heaven.
Today brings back such sad memories and deep emotions that I was experiencing the night prior to the actual day of Terry’s passing.
On the night prior, I could not sleep and just laid on the couch and held Terry’s hand as he rested on the recliner next to me and continued to become weaker by the moment. The hospice nurse had visited Terry earlier on that day and let me know that Terry’s time was fast approaching based on the signs and symptoms she observed concerning Terry. It was so hard for me to a accept this ultimate fate… but I knew that Terry’s condition was not going to suddenly change and that he was ready to leave this earth and was at peace with accepting God’s will to bring him to heaven.
So as I laid there on the couch that evening prior, I held his hand to assure that there was still signs of life and to let him know that I was right there by his side and not alone. I listened carefully as I observed Terry periodically hitting his pain pump button to relieve any discomfort that he was experiencing throughout that night. My anxiety was extremely high and I could not sleep at all.
That next morning although Terry’s voice was very raspy and he was fading in and out of consciousness I felt so helpless. There was not much I could do but to be there and to comfort him to the very end.
That morning I was able to make a quick call to his mother so that she could speak and Terry could hear her loving voice.
Shortly after that call, I went ahead and did a quick video of Terry confirming his love to all his immediate family. Immediately following that touching video…Terry spoke no more. His head generally went further back into the recliner and his heat beat became shallower. For the next four hours which seem like a lifetime…I sat there right by his side..holding his hand so that he would know that I was there with him and not alone in his last moments on this earth.
At 1 Pm on that September 1st 2017 day Teery’s heart finally stopped and mine sank. The time had come and it seemed all so surreal.
Farewell my dear Terry until we meet again someday in the kingdom of heaven.