Cancer will take my life

In my post ‘I will see her again‘, I concluded with the following –

These family members know my life may be short.  The once small cancer that was found almost 2 years ago, is now taking over my body.  The treatments may help slow down the progression, but ultimately my cancer will take my life.

In today’s post, I begin with the following –

In last Friday’s post ‘…out of my nose soon‘, I wrote about a small surgery to take place to insert a ‘G Tube’, from my stomach to the outside of my body.  This ‘G Tube’ will provide me a way to release the pressure from my stomach and small intestines without a tube going through my nose.  This ‘G Tube’ should bring me some relieve, however it brings on a whole another set of challenges.  With this tube, I will no longer eat through my mouth; but instead through an IV.

The surgery last Thursday was a success and after several more days of observation it was time to leave the hospital.

I spent my last 13 days in the hospital and arrived home again yesterday to the RV.  I am very glad to be out of the hospital and to be feeling better today.

Did you notice the pictures associated with last Friday’s post?  JImage2ust viewing some of the pictures, some of you know, a few may not have figured it out, and it may be others are not ready to accept or acknowledge.

I did not need to write the words, the associated pictures displayed the words in plain for all to see.

I left the hospital yesterday and now am back home in my RV to start my Hospice care.

Cancer will take my life.  I have always referred to this cancer in my body as my cancer as it does not belong to anyone else.  My cancer will take my life.  Those pictures associated to last Friday’s post revealed just how much my cancer has taken over and my fight is coming to an end.  My body and mind are worn and it is time to prepare for what is ultimately to take place.

20170416_194313 (2)The family visits of past weeks are over and my body is tired and mind is ready.

Hospice will begin this week and changes will take place in many areas for both Gary and me.  If you read my post yesterday, starting this week; the amount of posts will be reduced.

As always, I appreciate every one of you for stopping by each day to read and comment.  You my friends; your support and encouragement all have a huge positive impact on me.

But, now it is time – time for my cancer to take my life.

..out of my nose soon

This past Monday, in my post ‘Blockage‘, I wrote the following –

What caused this fluid buildup?

After a scan had taken place, it was determined I have a blockage between my small and larger intestines.  It is believed the blockage is caused by my cancer.  It is certain it will have to be dealt with before going back home.

7 days later and I continue to be in the hospital and be treated well enough I hope to go home soon.

But what about fixing the blockage?

I should know more today concerning what is next with this blockage issue.  I should be able to let you know later this week with better, up-to-date information.

In today’s post, I write the following –

11 days later and I continue to be in the hospital.

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But what about fixing the blockage?

After days of relieving pressure in my abdominal region and hoping the blockage would auto-correct itself, it has not.  For the past 11 days, I have had a tube inserted in my nose and down to my stomach in hopes the bloating and fluid would be decreased.  The issue continues and now more aggressive measures must be taken to resolve the blockage or at least make it manageable.

Yesterday, I had a small surgery to insert a ‘G Tube’, from my stomach to the outside of my body.  This ‘G Tube’ will provide me a means to release the pressure from my stomach and small intestines without a tube going through my nose.  This ‘G Tube’ should bring me some relieve, however it brings on a whole another set of challenges.  With this tube, I will no longer eat through my mouth; but instead through IV.

My medications will now be taken differently because I must allow the absorbing to take place in my stomach without being sucked out by this new ‘G Tube’.   A great deal of changes will take place in the next days and weeks to grow accustomed to this new way of life – my new way of life.

Gary and I have much to learn with this new way of life and I am confident we will make it through this learning period.

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My hopes are, this will be successful and the changes needed to my body will go well.

My hopes are, I will have this tube removed from out of my nose soon.

My hopes are, I will leave the hospital soon.

MacDill AFB

Some excerpts from wikipedia.org

MacDill Air Force Base, located in south Tampa, was constructed as MacDill Field, a U.S. Army Air Corps, later U.S. Army Air Forces, installation just prior to World War II. With the establishment of the U.S. Air Force as an independent service in 1947, it became MacDill Air Force Base.

MacDill AFB is also home to the headquarters for two of the U.S. military’s joint warfighting combatant commands: Headquarters, United States Central Command (USCENTCOM), and Headquarters, United States Special Operations Command (USSOCOM). Both commands are independent from one another and each is commanded by a respective 4-star general or admiral. Two additional sub-unified commands are also headquartered at MacDill AFB: Commander, United States Marine Corps Forces Central Command (COMUSMARCENT), commanded by a 3-star general, and United States Special Operations Command Central (USSOCCENT), commanded by a 2-star general.

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I could copy and paste much more information from Wikipedia – if you are interested please click the above link.

MacDill AFB is our new home for the next 6 months.

I wanted to share some pictures with you today.

This base is beautiful and I have just begun to take photos of it.

Over the course of our stay, I plan to take many more pictures.

Seeking a Home Base

Many of you know, last year Gary and I sold our huge house in Dallas, Texas.  We bought an RV and our plan was to travel the United States for a while until we were ready again to settle down permanently.

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My health changed for the worse and the travel adventure across the United States was put on hold.  We are currently living in Pensacola, Florida while my health care needs are taken care of.  Pensacola by no means is where Gary and I want to plant roots and call home; it is just a temporary location.

Our current location is an RV park located on the Naval Air Station Pensacola.  Their policy is an RV can stay for 3 months and then must leave for 2 weeks before returning back to the park for another 3 month stay.  Back in October we spent 2 weeks in another park near here that is also associated with the Naval Air Station, but not located on base.  At that time I was going through chemotherapy and we had to stay here in this area.

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The next time to leave our current RV park, we decided to store the RV for 2 weeks and went on our cruise in December.

December of last year in my post ‘My Message‘, I wrote that Gary and I initially were to spend Christmas with his family at the RV park, but the plans were changed due to unforeseen circumstances.  Those unforeseen circumstances involve Gary’s younger brother experiencing major health issues.  Some of you know Gary’s mom who suffers from dementia lives with his younger brother.  Because of his younger brother’s health issues, we transferred mom to Gary’s older brother in Orlando when we drove there for our cruise.

Now it is March and time again for us to leave this park for 2 weeks.  We again have decided to store the RV for 2 weeks and take a trip to Orlando for several reasons.

Gary’s older brother and wife are leaving for a weeklong trip and Gary and I will be staying with his mom during their absence.  We are also seeking and searching for a possible location to plant roots and find a home base.  We need a home base for several reasons and central Florida is our first choice.  The home base will allow us to have a permanent residence where we can receive mail and a place we can come back to after our travel adventures.

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The home base will also allow for Gary to have access to a permanent VA hospital for his medical needs.  Because our home base will be in a different area than our current location; I will need to find another health provider for my healthcare needs.

In 2 weeks, the RV is stored and we drive to central Florida to take care of mom and search for a possible home base.

Once the 2 weeks is over we will return to our current RV park.

Our House

Yesterday we left Dallas, Texas for our new temporary home in Pensacola, Florida.

Excited to be moving forward, we also have some sadness.

Our house that was a home was full of memories, times, events and furnishings.

Yesterday we left our house that was a home, a house we left empty.

home with our colors.

It is the last day – the day before we leave for good – never to return here again.

In my post ‘Home For Sale‘, I wrote the following –

I will admit, as much as I am excited about moving forward, I am somewhat sad about leaving this current home.  13 ½ years, this house we have called home.  I still remember seeing this home and walking through the front door for the first time.  It only took a few minutes and I told Gary “This is it, this is the one!”  We had previously spent months viewing properties and this one immediately stood out and I knew it would be our home.

In today’s post, I write the following –

Tomorrow is the day the new owners take possession of this house, our home for the past 13 ½ years.  The house is empty except those items that we are leaving behind for the new owners.

I can remember back to that year we bought our home; Halloween, October 31st, the papers were signed.  Prior planning included some painting to take place before we moved into our new home.  Gary and I were living in an apartment complex where we met someone that we hired to paint a couple of the rooms in our new home.  The painting was to start that Halloween day.  Gary and I were very excited about the new home, the new chapter we were starting and making the house a home; making it our home.

We checked in on the painter that evening and to our surprise not much had been accomplished, and what was completed so far; was a mess – it was a very bad job.  And then there were the beer cans everywhere and the total lack of attention to being careful with someone else’s belongings.  The painter was fired on the spot and there Gary and I sat with a partially painted room in an empty house that was to become our home.  I sat there and remembered back to a time when I was younger and helped my dad with renovating his rental properties.  I performed all sorts of jobs including painting!  I told Gary, I can do the painting, and that I did.

That first night Gary and I stayed up all night painting a couple of rooms.  They turned out beautiful and Gary was thrilled and amazed at the quality paint job I did.  Little did I know at that time, I would eventually paint the whole house with some rooms being painted twice!

So 13 ½ years later, the last day is here – the day before we leave for good – never to return here again.

The new owners are painting, this I know – they will make it their home, with their colors.

While we were here we made it our home with our colors.

Happy Birthday America

Happy Birthday America

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Google these words and first on the results is –

July 4, 1776

Independence Day July 4th. On July 4, 1776, we claimed our independence from Britain and Democracy was born. Every day thousands leave their homeland to come to the “land of the free and the home of the brave” so they can begin their American Dream. The United States is truly a diverse nation made up of dynamic people.

Today is America’s birthday – how will I celebrate?

It has been years since I attended festivities and fireworks.  Will I attend today?

Last year, I spent this day out of town for the first time ever on this holiday.  Gary and I were in Florida looking at locations to live and ended our trip by spending this day with his family.  This year we are staying home again as we have done so many previous years.  This is our last time to spend this holiday in our current home.  In less than a month, we will be leaving this home and starting our drive to Florida.  Today we celebrate it one last time here in this home.

In my post on this day last year ‘Parades, Fireworks & Celebrations‘, I concluded with the following –

It is a huge effort for me to be out of my comfort zone that is my backyard, away from my home, my nice lawn and garden and my cool, refreshing pool.  I am sure the home will be standing upon our return and within a day or two I will be back into my usual daily routine.

For this day July 4th with me celebrating elsewhere and not staying home in my comfort zone – there should be parades, fireworks & celebrations – for maybe I am declaring independence from my comfort zone.

In today’s post, I conclude with the following –

My last July 4th to spend in my comfort zone is here, and I celebrate.  I celebrate the house that was a home to me for almost 14 years.  I celebrate this home that has provided me warmth in the cold winter and a refreshing pool to jump into in the hot summer.  I celebrate this home that has given me shelter during stormy weather.  I celebrate this home that gave me a place to explore my imagination and create an awesome Christmas display for many to enjoy.  I celebrate this home that gave me feelings of safety and security during times of trouble, times of sorrow and times of grief.

And I also celebrate the leaving soon of my comfort zone to a new temporary location for the next several months.  I do not know where I will be next year spending my July 4th, but this year it is here one last time.

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Happy Birthday America

Fingers Crossed

In my post ‘IN 45 MINUTES‘, I concluded with the following –

Image9The showing came and stayed about 20 minutes and then left.

Did anything come out of the showing?

No offer, but the response from the realtor is the people did like the house and the neighborhood.

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In today’s post, I begin with the following –

I received quite a few comments on that post that I would like to share –

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As you can see, I received some very optimistic and positive comments sending good luck my way.

Within a couple of hours of the last comment, guess what?  Yes, you are correct – we received another call!  It is Friday evening and the call comes in for a showing on Saturday from 11:30 AM – 1:00 PM.  This gave us plenty of time to have the home ‘show-ready’.  Image7We were up bright and early with a few preparations to take care of and 11:15 AM we had the house ready to show.  There is a knock on the door and it is the realtor showing the house and indicates they are early, no problem; we grab our cell phones and Roxy (our dog) and get into the truck and leave.  The realtor and her clients are standing on the sidewalk and we wave as we drive by.  Nice younger couple with a young daughter; they wave back and smile.

Image5Gary and I drive around a bit and then park in our usually spot across the main street from our small cul-de-sac.  20 minutes pass, that is a good sign – 30 minutes pass, they must like the house; 40 minutes, then 50 minutes, then 1 hour passes.  Image6The cars then leave the cul-de-sac and we proceed back to our house.  1 hour; they must really like the house.

The anticipation grows as Gary and I talk about the possible outcome of this most recent showing.  We are hopeful they liked the home and an offer will soon follow.  Later in the evening we receive feedback from the showing agent –

‘My clients are considering their options in Lake Highlands and Richardson over the Memorial Day weekend. They are interested in this lovely home.’

Yes, this is very good feedback!  Now the waiting begins.  What will their decision be?  When will Image4the decision be made?  Will we receive an offer?

We will have to wait a few days.

I wrote this post on Sunday morning and am publishing today.  It has been a few days now Image3since that very good feedback.

The waiting continues.

 

Fingers Crossed.

IN 45 MINUTES!

I concluded my post ‘Are we there yet?’, with the following –

 

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I am like a child (or donkey) sitting in the backseat and continually asking the question “Are we there yet?”

I respond to myself “The Kingdom of Far, Far Away, that’s where we are going – far, far away!”

But in the meantime Gary and I continue to have the house ‘show-ready’ and remain optimistic.

Are we there yet?

I start my post today, with the following –

We are not there yet – I am still sitting in the backseat asking the same question.  The answer is still the same.

Last Saturday we did have a showing; and Gary and I had to rush to get the home ready.  Saturday morning, we had no clue we would have a showing.  We had already decided we would do our weekly cleaning; dusting, cleaning kitchen cabinet & countertops, and Gary vacuumed the downstairs.  I decided I would vacuum the upstairs on Sunday.  I had the pool looking sparkly clean and I picked up the backyard of a few fallen leaves and Gary did the same in the front yard.  These are activities taking place on a daily basis because you never know when we might receive that call.

It is about 11:45 AM and I decided I would lay out and soak in the sun.  Gary and I do this almost daily, as we love the sun.  About 15 minutes later, Gary comes outside and proceeds to lay out and also soak in the sun.  He asks me “Is your cellphone out here?”  I answer “Yes.”  He responds “You never know when we may get the call for a showing, it could be today.”  I respond “It could be.”  In less than 5 minutes my cellphone rings, and guess what?  We have a showing!  I asked the person on the other end twice what time the showing is scheduled for.  The call ends and Gary asks, “What time is the showing?”  I respond “IN 45 MINUTES!”

Okay, you want to talk about 2 guys looking like chickens with their heads cut off –let’s just say, we were hustling!

I hurriedly vacuum the upstairs while Gary starts going through our ‘showing checklist’.  The ‘showing checklist’ lists items we do not want to forget to do.

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These items include removing the dog’s water bowls, hiding cellphone cords, turning on lights, and removing other personal items from site.  In 40 minutes we are ready and we leave the house.

We live on a small cud-de-sac off a main street.  We park across the main street off another side street with view of the entrance to our cud-de-sac.  Since we know all our neighbor’s vehicles, we know when there is an unfamiliar vehicle that enters the street.

The showing came and stayed about 20 minutes and then left.

Did anything come out of the showing?

No offer, but the response from the realtor is the people did like the house and the neighborhood.

Will there be a call today?

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From my post ‘Happenings on the Homefront‘, I wrote the following –

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As some of you may know, selling a home and having it listed on the market can at times be hectic.  Gary and I always want our home to show perfectly and immaculately.  We are neat in our living and our home is always clean and tidy.  Especially now that the home is ready to sell and we never know when that next call will come in for the next showing.

In today’s post, I write the following –

We are waiting for that next call and the next showing.

The house is on the market now for 5 weeks today.  The amount of showings in these past weeks has been disappointing.  The initial excitement we had to sell the home has diminished some, but we continue to remain confident the house will sell soon.  While we continue to remain optimistic we continue to keep the house spotless both inside and outside.  During this time, we continue to plan the next chapter in our lives, which as you know is Plan B – our travel adventure.

Several open houses have taken place with additional ones in the works in the next couple of weeks.  Once a solid offer is received, additional downsizing will take place.

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We have not made a final decision on what we will keep and store and what we will rid of.  We may choose to have an estate sale and sale everything, or take another route to sell some items and keep others.  Time will tell on what we will decide.  We also will need to officially buy the RV which at this point will be a travel trailer.  We anticipate the weight of it empty and the added weight with what we will take will us will be under that weight capacity our new truck can tow.

We are very anxious to sell the home because quite frankly we are ready to move on.  We are excited about our future and ready to embark on the adventure we are planning.

Obviously depending on the result of my next urology visit, some future plans may need to be changed.

But in the meantime we both have become a little irritable lately because the keeping the house spotless to show potential buyers and not having potential buyers come look at it – well – is stressful and we have become restless.

The additional activities that will take place once a solid offer is in place and the results of my next Dr. F. visit are on hold until the time comes.  In the meantime, we continue to clean windows, dust furniture, wipe countertops, pickup leaves from the yard and wait for that next call and the next showing.

The frustration of the day in day out constant routines to keep the house ‘show-ready’ are getting to me.

I am ready to move on!